and that's what essentially was happening. the switch went back on. i needed to get very honed and totally focused on escaping. for me, for patrick, for my family. one way or the other, whether i escape or whether i get killed trying, i'm getting out of here. going to the island was incredible news for me. i didn't know how specifically i was going to get off the island, but i knew one way or the other, this is better than the istanbul prison. it's 17 miles off the coast. the sea is considered to be the wall around the island.