Transcripts For DW Not 20240705

The subject im not physically, but psychologically happened is by m. C. Shoes is new. I take the hormones because i enjoy feeling more masculine masculinity. But that doesnt make me a man of this month to month. Yeah, the one who sits in speaker and when i look at myself in the mirror, now that means i can finally see me because the person ive always been am, i guess you could say that now i finally exist. Yeah. Existence for fine. The, my name is up in a spin simmons funds. My name is robin diaz. Im 25 hobbits. Im starting to become a social worker on foot. I live near frankfort and im trans smoothly. That means the gender i was assigned to birth is wrong with it. Doesnt fit this type, i dont have it. You just have cant use list of the nation. Theres nothing there is. Okay. I know that now, and its ok that theres nothing with the kids that are past the term that fits best as a gender and buying their usually tools. I dont know if its in my gene this week. I definitely didnt choose any of the the i the set scans on this one then have a still not so much. Yep. And then see what is possible for me to go to and i walk across the street and people look at me and want to categorize me as a man and i promise. And whenever im out in public, and i noticed that im seeing is a man that people address me is that some young man, its monday about a distance. Thats what people think when they look at my body type this cup a bit its, thats what i want it and want to achieve advice and video. And its been the full mismatch. All glazing, savannah, im very happy not to be seen as a woman anymore. How about being seen as a man isnt quite right, either this or any of us. Most people dont see that theres another option in housing, but there are more than just to generalize the, the mice and mentioned that i know that most people arent being mean i found it. They just dont understand about what happens over and over and over again. It might be the post i find it exhausting to endure all the time. Oh so how does this my, how long is this is my hormone jumps. Me didnt talk of. Ive been putting it on my arms every day for a year now. And its me, my voice deeper, mazda, so i understand i can grow beards down just move optics, the hello. My name is calvin. Something time in the w h. I its yeah. Basically just do i go by else . Yeah. So try any task. Yeah, thank you. Susan. Susan its been hard to hear via the car today because im due for a mistake to me. Check up. I have everything removed in the doctors checking to make sure everything is here. Well, of course i must be a mice and im im cup. I just stood up because they bothered me most about my body, apart from my voice, with the breasts fisting simply because i couldnt either because it was too much. And the people says that, oh my god, you must be a woman because there are presents, there are only got the most santa falls on men to buy a house on the spot. Ill ask them, give me just an area that i never considered my body cup that never belonged to me, but that was never a part of i need. Im tired from you and the surface was human, vic, to me said, i always wanted to go and cook. I believe my own body should make me feel comfortable and secure. She lives in the system is as of the board and from the in the, as soon as i found out that there was something i could do about that this, it was very liberating the civic some but us be, once i knew it was possible that i could do it by own like, it was clear to me that i wanted to go through with kind of this my home on the inside of my milk science build us all the photos of i really dont like seeing photos of me with the breasts are still clearly visible along the name, i dont like nastiness because i just see a completely different person it under because a Stranger Thing you sent us on this. We dont want to present myself that way either whos present to you in the state. Thats why im covering my face a little bit of this stuff because it just doesnt feel good brothers. I 100 screwed on food. The middle of it to button the citizens for us to wear like having a 3rd arm or something finished or something completely wrong with my body. I couldnt touch the lesson thats consistent. When i looked down at myself when i just thought it was terrible, i really couldnt cope with it it on there was something i heard from everyone kind of stomach throwing himself selling it on the subject. A albany. Robin, would you come with me . Hello. Hello. Hello, thank you my. Im ready. Okay, this way, right in here. So i, if you go under via phone and take a seat here on the left. Perfect. How are you know, hes doing great so far. Yeah, yes. I assume your quality of life as improvement on the mission. Yeah. Yes. Very much cup of my body feels completely different to me and i can touch it all and it feels good and feels like me. Oh, youre close to probably. Yeah, yeah, totally havent the shirt wouldnt work before because my shoulders are brought her down in one to need different sized clothes. Ill have to figure out where to find something that fits moves by spending time with me sitting in front while it looks good on you. You wear it well. Actually, id like to see how things are looking right now. For that. I would ask you to take off your chair and 5. So lets lets estimate assessment for the categories. The 1st time i saw my flight up, her body was at the hospital for hours after surgery and still p shawn. I didnt have a mirror, but i just had to change it as i could look down the front window. I noticed that these mountains were gone. Im a kind of the academic and then i could see my belly button. Im just going to involve and out of the yes. Why it felt like so im coming home actually concession is the opposite. The scars have faded quite a bit. I noticed there was a bit of stretching here. Right. So yeah, probably because im right handed. Assigned to that, so it looks like you massage this well in the meantime, as i recommended to sting how i think the scores will get better with time, the Association Fee can continue massaging them. Overall, i think your upper body looks more masculine and it suits you very well. Thank you. The 55th, always pretty tough and i think for those with this issue, the most important thing is simply to be accepted. They dont want to take away anybody elses freedom. They just want to be appreciated and accepted in their own freedom of. This isnt some kind of frivolous process. It involves getting many expert opinions, changing or legal status, and who knows what else of each other. Its just not something you decide to do on a whim. Try that, that this will be, well, if you need anything, come back any time to you. Thats fine. Thanks. Thank you. Im not a new person. My personality is still the same, but this shadow self is finally gone. As those get some fellow to design, there are those who say i just want attention in some type is specifically about being a non binary person, identity and gauge. As when you look at how long the journey i embark, dont really use them on this, on what it takes to get where i am now. Then its thats just so much worse. And i didnt choose, this is from voice been, this is sophia. And no, i dont want attention online semester kind of make some kind of just name list. I didnt even go through with all these operations just to get some attention. Ultimate son cut the human side. So applies in young time when i was between 13 and 23, was the worst of my life, the best of my knowledge of shortness, my old school advice, and images i was in the middle and high school here for 5 or 6 years from 6 avalon a die off their loan bank. Theyre on the blue bench and thats where our cost would hang out at lunchtime. But it was always an outside or in the loan, a bunch of other images up. So that brings back old emotions as a new field. Ill just have that kind of a one bedroom. I only have any friends because they all thought it was weird illusion and my classmates would often just make up words to tease me. Yeah, i think i forgot to put it in. One word, for example, was farming because i didnt shave my legs, sign well and was considered on high genex some and end of the a tough on its own conflict guide me about few people made fun of me. That would be invited to a party that wasnt even have access to them and for this one. So in the not potty and then. So for an option that will be taught to me if you listen to you can further on, you know, started when i was young, i realized i didnt fit in with the girls and i didnt fit in with the boys. The girls just did girls stuff and i found it strange mass on the front, but i wasnt at home with the boys either. Im already used by the office, so i didnt know where i belong to him. As if i were to tell me, i still havent processed that yet. Its deep within me. So its no teeth. And its been like i used to come to me and age and the couldnt talk to my parents like family or friends that kind of want because i didnt know how to put it into words. That was, this is mr. News was what im going to, i didnt fit in anywhere. He was sort of stuck in limbo and then i couldnt stand out. So i started trying to fit in with the girls because thats where i supposedly belong. I had a job, im trying to find me after food was unclear, could and i look at old photos. Its always very strange mac. I think thats the best word for it. The best of what the fear via because i know thats me and thats part of my past, but ive lost my connection to the savannah. Forgotten had good about it. Have to do for been so fellow on. I dont talk about myself as a girl either each and because i never was one and i never was i never will be. Its bonnie ions, its that of me and sign. And thats why i dont use my old name anymore. Important because its just not relevant anymore now, but of this ive also miss 1011. So anyone else could soon understand some point in 2018 . I left home and i thought to myself, see hey, i dont know any peoples work. Were in the mentioned to korea and i came across course 41 in frankfort and sisters. And then from 1st the 1st 3 of assume central. Were youth center, a safe place for people who work a bi, sexual, a sexual trans or non veneer and tongue. So whos been as ins, dental, or me all started here, 2 and a half years ago. The youngest on the phone . Yeah, its just as estimate here, the 1st time i was here, there was an introductory meeting that was at that meeting that i met people who were unclear for the 1st time. I asked my yellow, tingling to confusing um one for more importantly, people who are transcends where like me, diesels in the is my little world kind of explode and it is. And it was like, wow, i think on trans to slope, but not a trans maam. As being 10, i started a googling and research quite a bit on the internet to see whats out there. Oh, guns, few intended to associate. So i quickly came across the term non binary series, often because of miss bean. Yeah. And that word on tied a huge, not within making, using snowden didnt have to lose perhaps as well to answer those guns fuel lines. The 1st, it was a big release. When done. Com and i was afraid of the youngest. Because the moment i knew this about myself, which this was, i also knew i couldnt go back the keys. I wouldnt more than just a minute to look in this deed of mens. I had to tell my boyfriend lloyd too. I had to tell my family, well, i had to tell my friends who was this man of a medium. It was time to let the cat out of the bag glendon ends on most of this up club and cousins, they sent it said confound from chris and i have been together for 5 years now. I asked for, and i only came out to him about 2 and a half years ago the inc outage. I just mean my partner was trans, wasnt stressful at all. Madison, i showed him videos of people who were non binary of the because it was important to me that hed get to know that as well and, but this may be new super interested in super supportive as well inside. Well see, hey, all right, well figure it out somehow. What do you need of . How can i help you . But i cries because i hadnt expected. That is and then i was just like of course it was incredible. Yeah. Whats the city moment . What was it like for you . And i told you when i told you i was trained, i took this confidence very fast and it was so we certainly loved to absorb we just had no idea of what that meant for us. And how things would change by should i accepted the challenge or the challenge im gonna have to see if anything changed for you between us because of in the spring . No, no, just a life of it but nothing drunk. Mix coffee and then not in my name is that may i see your name, but i dont consciously think about this anymore, but its more subconscious now because its still you saving and strange that i have a deep voice mails to my hot the mattresses on the system again as well, cuz youre supposed to be honest, i dont even notice so tiny language the i dont remember what your voice was like before christmas time. I just have it in my hand has stuff in mind eligible for the image. I have a view right now as also replace the one that my memory is nothing on the, on the sides. When i think back to the time before the changes, you still look the same as you do now if you to, at least by myself, cuz i so as fish design, because thats what my head thinks is, right . Its like, its always been this way. The believe in the mind of fish southern near getting you back over to tech. At 1st i was confused when robin came out to me and said that because i had no experience with the whole thing and the incumbent fire of a. But i learned all the terminology and all the things that go with it. And again, just as rather not to, im hanging over just as often down like a few less and then level and what are our feelings for each other and especially my feelings from robin were not affected, because for me the person is always in the for grant and it depends on who knows, looks like there is more to a person than just their gender. So of course after robin came out initially i didnt question or feature because it didnt matter to me what the others talked about as a couple 100 bucks. Yeah. And then so it was very clear to me that we would Stay Together one to decide about as far as we can kind of thing. Just go through them line up this about seats in the income for a while. I wondered whether this could even work through outside or as wed always been hetero. Yeah. The social norm because that we knew that was going to change. And of course, that does affect the relationship to this office, but the, you. So the question was, how do we do want to be, i think for most people, the whole trans issue is still very for this in mind. Or im sure because theres just lots of different math symptoms. Yes, there is more acceptance. Active tons about acceptance is not understanding. This is theres a different used escapes. Strange people keep getting assault if it comes to the next. Lets just the other day in frankfort on the trans woman was attacked right on the street. Awesome discipline, you seem discrimination like that makes me so angry. Must be so. Uh, but also very, very sad. Told me, i realize other people were denying me the right to have my own identity. My own life feed me and my lima things are going well. Politically, either of the pretty take mazda has kind of quinta, look at hungry or colon gun at a point on goal, and is currently setting up l g b t q, frequently. Be chiefly, its on line where people who work, we are not welcome you as an alpha induced and a yeah. So, so what is that going to duty . You think youre not welcome here in the world just because you think youre not allowed to exist on the success team. Smells inside of this kind of absolutely been discriminated against, but i in many ways my minnes paysimple come on them. Whenever i get letters, its always a very strange feeling for me then because they always call me the wrong thing to say to my wife has, im going to 12 investments and this, and im like, i think it would be best if that were simply a minute its not because its not necessary well and when needed. I use neil pronoun, but not this new one on this. And theres a whole list of them because they let father put on. They get something on that shows the pronoun and it helped me at the spelled n i and also moved as an investor, for example, instead of saying that he plays with his dog, and that would be in place with means dont suck a cloud of smoke. Come on from sure. Net might seem complicated at 1st ivan, but with a little practice can you get used to it . So pushing it in one time on business and the comforts on that also can, i think getting out of your comfort zone is the least you can do to except the 1st on tying this active tip. Its sylvia if send it has its just a little word means it can change so much. Lets, lets know im kind of lost my surface and then can maam, weve incorporated so much english into the german language. Language is always changing. I cant understand how you can be so ignorant and how you can have such a hard time with adding a few words to your vocabulary muma level. Its no common thing. Even mama leave up. How about your mom do dad . Im writing this letter to you. So that you can take, however much time you need as you read, i guess my type name cont, as such as a few lines for them. I was very afraid of coming out to my parents because i knew that they had no contact with your people at all. So you had mentioned, how was it the company didnt even know anyone who was gash woods and somebody should be that thats why i didnt talk to them 1st the assessment then i decided to write them a letter because i didnt want to experience the 1st reaction but as the as to the soonest applicant, but its been kind of how i met a woman. Nice. Been ok, but im also not a man lives in yet. I remain simply who i am, who ive always been to the flesh meant always so that i may change my appearance and when i am still the same child, you have always loved the invoice tie. It may take your time and get in touch. When you want to know more about this is when she came in to see me. I wish that you will accept me for whom i am just without having to justify myself to you. I love you if need boys robin hobbin to meet you, but thats in the attempt to my surprise, my parents responded very well, my mind and what type of screen 1st my mother wrote me on with that. This thing is she told me she loves me very much and thank me for the letter. Thank toughening fees on mine, papa had it and my dad said he didnt care because nothing had changed all of this, but emmys infinity, it wont lose me. I said, because im still his child and always done it to end up spinning as i can when that result a lot of great boost. Hello im, im me gets im doing well when yours. When isnt that . From logarithm my parents did worry that this might not be the right thing for me to do by the funds they just didnt know me. Well, i know it can come. I talked to them a lot and told them that, you know, this is right for me, like me. Its just trust me. You know, this, this taught me down and how does it mean . And then they did trust me once and now they can see that im doing better despite its talk soon. Bye. Choose the machine, my endocrinologist today, can you check my blood work every 3 months route and gives me a new prescription for my hormones. Gets up somebody, the homeowner conduct the flu. Yeah. 170, i mean i have a video that are recorded and edited myself where you can see and hear the changes the hormones have made on, especially in my voice is open in the homes and stimulus creek. I dont want to have some kind of book as name. There are no real side effects. The hormone treatment will flush ice time, only thing im worried about as being dependent just as i said, i think its been as its been opinion here. Im dependent on doctor is giving me a prescription, so i can keep taking hormones. Name come on. Donald has been around as well are sometimes im worried. What would happen if that were to stop somehow . I couldnt get them anymore. Assistance makes me you my son. So i did come to the counter to come here and then lets mon, i remember last time you reported that you were still not quite satisfied with the effect of this hormone therapy happening in your case testosterone. Thats the whole disorder and severe non editor. Yeah. The dosage was lower than that, it was indeed lower meetings and i wasnt doing so well. I had some mood swings in so to leave this place an order, lets talk about increasing the doses. Thats possible. As long as we monitor things, this would contribute district for images. For me, its important to note that being trans is neither a disease nor a disorder. I see it as a normal bearing and experienced by some members of our society. Its just a way of being in the world often in science. As s model, its my 1st time climbing since kind of stuck to me without the breast, its very different mysteries, douglas consent. I dont have to focus on how it looks or whats in the way. I can just call him without anything interfering with. Is this the good . Yeah, this is a minute but some funding to other topics already supported when i came out to my best friend and and things changed very quickly that soon enough and then she asked me directly what me and program she should be using now the vision and how i define myself and the seems different me at the office. Ill tell them of this and i think it breaks the ice between us a little more. Its not a being one of the 1st people to find out about it was the ultimate proof that you trusted me. Ok. So the pharmacy was ups is im a didnt change anything in the friendship itself. And if anything deepened did a bit this in so yeah, i think so to hold on victor, fee and follow reading definitely seems to be a lot happier in that piece. With each passing day, you notice more and more just how well robin is doing now. Scrubbing netscape, so miss from and crew a ive definitely come into my own defeat and body and soul. Yeah. But in society its a different story. Yes, i have reached my personal goal. How much must i still have to fight until this goal is valued by others . So i can be accepted just as i am. So i can simply be when these even been in the system signed the, the the stopping Climate Change. Thats what theyre aiming for. We want to achieve rethinking and society of civil about commitment and hope about visions and the people behind the inverting catastrophe. Climate change, the 15 minutes on d. W, on the status by, by a confident bursting with creativity, needs to design is and cultural icons. 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