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Consensus talked to about the type of the 28. 00 franchises and sometimes its exhausting. Trying to find in, in about an estimate on in the home life can be exhausting. Listening to people talk about pet t saying like like theyre important if i could scream. But whats good with that too . It just makes like jumping back and forth between 2 well the image of them spring close. Its okay to enjoy yourself and just to now start but dealing with life and death, you have to process it. You can just shut the telephone from the field on november, november the full. Every time i come to the hospice, im filled with a kind of joy. Its not that easy to talk about. So its just anybodys picking them time coming up nice to meet you. Dont the time drowning and Infinite Sadness when im alone. But i do think about just a lot, and i think i find positive energy in difficult situations as well as in happy one that i because barbara always says, how nice that youre here. And every time i think to myself, how nice that i get to be the yeah. Of the the highest. And youll have to i didnt, im present in the high im yeah, one is the new present us the dvd ash. 021 grams. So what does 21 grams refer to . Thats roughly how much the human. So my way, its not scientifically proven. Of course thats not, but it needs the most of rooms for what. What does that leave room for . Oh, crap. Thank if the ones we want to make dash less of it today and we want to talk with you about things. People dont usually like to talk about time. So again, im a companion for the dying, which means that im always standing at the crossroads between life and death lead to ive been doing this for 7 years now and i have the feeling this way cuz put way more intensity to how im living. Because without death, theres no nice and also stuff. Im the one on top of that. Ive also lost the siblings. So death is always played a big role for me. And then with my grandfather go. So i was 11 when he died and saw this decline, the other really alive, man who did so many things changed within just 2 months. I was there for all that. Certainly. So thats been my experience with that so far. How busy you say you were at the funeral and go about i was at the funeral and i saw him for the last time for the 2 weeks before he died. I visited him for the last time. He was already pretty far gone. Hed request a lot, he talked about his mother. He didnt really recognize anyone anymore, but he was still alive and still present somehow. Or why his own grief helps us to see feelings more clearly. Im sense most subtle new and i was getting mixed because grief doesnt begin with the death of a person. So what grief all of you just like this is a fact of life that accompanies us. It was just like i accompanied an 8 Year Old Girl who lost a 12 year old sister to bone campsite fund on dublin. You know, i joined the family rights house to the dad will come and sit by and that will stick with l. R. I noticed that she was sometimes the police side for a moment, a moment, and then she was okay, go into my its so we go back to play a piece of control up with. Its like she jumped from one pool of sadness to the next box and then also, and its the case with us adults that we think of just such a well of grief. But we cant get house events. We almost drowned and it then goes, i definitely noticed that some major differences between children and adults of oxygen and all the of the estimate assessed for a few weeks. So ive seen accompanying mandy who has a Serious Health conditions now soon she will die. Shes on the waiting list for hospice bed and you meant vice one, this divide signed it. Right. So lets just i was wondering about your bucket list or i would have called a wish list of, of what you call a bucket list. In there, for instance, tom. Yeah, its quite a funny story. I saw a movie wants to fill stuff to her in the hospital and they said to themselves, hey, i still have certain things that i would like to do or has the field before i kick the bucket, to go home and most of the force and the people and then it became so clear to me a bucket list, which of those things that i would still like to do before i kick the bucket, to move up to the top feeder that you have so many or 40 or 40 to right now. Wow. And all the ones that just codes youve done those exactly. I to feel the or shape them some houses. It was sort of and it was funny in the beginning when you think about it for its like what do you really want to do or experience in your life or so thats where its like they were a couple of things where i thought to myself as well, hello, this might be exactly what i want from life government for to happen. For example, id like to eat fresh strawberries or fly. I thought that was never really happened. Then suddenly i found myself sitting in an ultra lot airplane. And it was like, wow, well, because flying me kind of means interesting to me or probably because i had a near death experience. I felt this kind of freedom then to be honest, irish things i had good her from this, not of the kind of felt some of that again and this out for lifeline. Just existing between heaven. And that was really fascinating for me. So if somebody was supposed to me and talk to susan, or when did you start writing all that down because im in the box for the no maam. Then lets my little list immediately off to my last surgery from which was when i decided not to undergo any more surgeries. And that was a very major operation where they had to be super late me 4 times. And it became very clear to me like no, ive had a total of 11 life saving hot interventions guys, but thats enough. On that, in the same breath, so to speak. I decided to take this palliative rogia to those, and also to pursue these wishes. So if i could list of what id like to do and im, im, i still havent got their final said, youve already had a near death experience. How does, what do you think happens after death thing to know if its been for the stuff, what about sort while im totally convinced that i know because in this new test experience, i didnt see it right. What tunnel like some people to i saw myself dying from above. For me it was completely bizarre because i could hear and feel this crazy alarm sound coming from the marta. I could field and this is 5th. But at the same time, there was also a complete stillness total silence. So it was completely quiet and noisy at the same time. And there was also the total piece. I noticed that i no longer had any questions. I also had this strange, 360 degree view without having to move in any particular way. Thats lets come give you. It became clear to me that im in the and the 1st thing would be why mail . My notice that me from and then it was clear, well hello, there you go. And my fear of death immediately vanished. Foster this near death experience phone, contact the number on the the, the you take it by phone. Yes. Its going to do that. Thats what id like to ride the road coast. Uh. Okay. But that was pretty cool too. Yeah. As to april, the 11th i may tell, or i said childrens bereavement, great. I was leading dismissal. I took a few moments before her big sister died of bone cancer. She was only 12 and it was 8 years old. And somehow we instantly clicked. And since then i have a company, the family show through that grief, joy and dine. Got any of those items to, to move forward, but tell me what youre planning. Lice than done reading the government. Yeah. Okay. Im yeah, i just have your mind, i have my dissertation so bad guys. And we also have, im interested in the agency of terminally ill children to nephew to vanish. And because i think that children onto involves nearly enough in this whole process when it comes to therapy meshes and just being included in the whole Decision Making process with us. But since it seems as though it is okay and talk to, i think you should definitely let the kids have their so its gonna be deed of course you could also consider the parents perspective, the design other actually assessing how equipped to their children or to decide on these issues, nobody to non so it but the children should definitely be involved. You should ask about their opinions and wishes and also about agency that with whom i got to venice and all that. Do you think that you find a Company Different personally . So my doctoral thesis now for a few months for a year, then i might get to many different perspectives because no 2 families are like julia the other. Im glad i then somehow incorporate them. Oh, come talk to me. No. Would that still be scientific enough for them . Assistant traffic them, you know, does that come that Qualitative Social Research is really going into depth, not taking a broad approach or field of fill it and then it becomes less about having as many cases or families as possible. And more about looking at what are the very concrete, subjective issues that come up and asking a terminally ill child these questions into something done. And if you do that over a long period of time, you go, you will need significantly fewer cases. Then if you were to just conduct a series of interviews, so i would 1st wait until you have the Research Design and use and then you can look at the next step. How many families do you need to answer your questions, find something to that will be decides to identify for instance, june the 15th. The thing for me that still inexplicable is how the time i spend in the hospice is imbued with the menlo de cool, nice, gentle rhythm of nice weather. Adagio will presto, mine arrow major. Everythings held together by a structure, everything interact just with everything else. Its like values that we define to, man, im increasingly aware of the emotional depths that sign could facing the world itself and, and its inhabitants. And so ive got this, this is, this is, i feel very, very comfortable here. I just have to say that over fee is i had to just go on. Although i cant say exactly why i simply feel comfortable here. I feel like im in good hands, you know. Good old school, the, somebody for me. I never used to feel this way, but eventually its irrelevant whether i still have 3 months or only for another 2 years. And that its just not important piece. It is hard. Im enjoying this time that i have now like this is, its beautiful because all the things that i have suffered in my cost dont match row anymore, and this is dead versus the device. This is how was it for you to grow up in an alternate gmc goes into effect. Doesnt shape me a lot, for example, because of that experience. I didnt want to come here. I didnt want to come to this hospice life isnt very easy. Is it for you this too much ahead of you . You dont even know it yet. So thats Something Else thats good for me. Im gonna look theres not much that can happen to me anymore. But i see on them are you afraid of death because it doesnt sound like its only well . No, not as old as an, especially since i was told that my dad would be simply losing my strength, losing the desire to do anything with the visa of us. And it would be like slowly saying good bye to life and falling asleep. When the im and i will not resist this study, this was this almost, i think that death comes when its supposed to come done. And that is quite reassuring domains. Friends for the mind like come names of the god. Oh, by the applied to on the side to be the is in the boston the items on the east august august. The 21st im leaving messages to me personally is supporting the people here and making their lives most beautiful because we so i want to push a smile on their faces and enjoy life with them to the fullest over as much as possible. Life is so precious and we only get one, even if you know that you could always assume you should still make every my minutes and unforgettable quantities. Maybe im taking on a bit too much for, but thats my goal. Notice, and you should always have a goal and so i dont mind seeing how ok. So i think these need to go back. You guys have no, yes i had the same. So when i saw that somehow doesnt fit to to, thats what will come, where do these blocks come from . The fix is cuts better. Theres only the pink one here now. To me thats a little too. So serena understand bouncing off, it was really fun up, some again, one can exactly. So were looking at what does this mean of nearing it like this . Yes. Okay. As positive matches look good. I work on the truck, us to very good. Yes, great. Then really sams click minute and then im excited to talk about the back cover. Take 6, we can think about the design is the back cover to hopefully look side to mit, twisting and come. Then, then maybe we can look at the whole phone bill. In this paragraph, its important to me that these 10 insights come across Even Stronger does it, does it seem as if the books about coming, okay this, the rest of us is full. So, and its not just aimed at the people dealing with this disease. And then remember to assign kind of chris is as you always put it so beautifully, people who are dealing with death dont need to take a mindfulness cooling. Yeah. Yeah. Kind of doesnt said this guys, i dont want to write this book any for people who have confronting desk right now, but for everyone, because this is a subject this effect. So, so im going to swing willow, die at some point. And thats why its so important to somehow deal with the subject before hand. Its what i answered when dest eventually happens, it wouldnt be as difficult to manage the, this is still brace last. Hey, cool, thats totally sweet of you. After that, so in your bucket, less than enough. Yes. And the fresh from random beg look really fresh to thank you very much on christmas. You will one right now a loved one. Great. So its good to say i havent eaten strawberries for ages. So yes, that was a great idea of yours. My pleasure. P z. There was still plenty in it though. Yes, thats great. I always loved them as a child to my grandmother had a huge god and back then, im from the 3rd. If it was filled with strawberries and cards, things like that. I was just really present whenever i was the you dont the find me in the god. Mm hm. Because i thought also it also has a lot to do with your childhood, right . Strawberries or not. So do you want people 2 weeks to please at your funeral, whatever, whatever, what do you think about it . So you know, some people really liked things like that for you, for example, i could totally imagine people Drinking Coffee at my funeral. I think thats kind of cool because i also like to drink coffee all the time. Thing enough. Ill be downstairs and the studio to can you can drink something. This doesnt time to me. So then im not quite sure about it. I mean, usually i dont where black guy may come to. So, so should i take some of the again, victim reset. Ok. Lets most of the fair cool, very cool. Its somehow much smaller than i expected to ask about. Okay, so look so much speaker on tv oh or diesels in line with a 27 year old ones that the company to die out of a lot. Yeah. And then i get that question fairly often, and i always think to myself, why wouldnt i miss of the bottom it . Why is the scene is something that said the queue . Yes, yes, its something that everyone finds so difficult and they say, hey, why you doing this . Why are you dealing with such a heavy subject to such a young a end table for me . For me it doesnt feel heavy for me. Its for me, its more of a question of why isnt this a normal thing for us to date on this . It is best without something i just dont because i want to use a t for me. It on this day when this dentist have relationships. Liam on this emptiness, and just being in this pure existence, poor dogs line, i think thats what makes me feel even more relies screwing less high. China. Ive got lucy here for them. Yeah. Its just way too much going to flour, but we dont have to cool of it. Lets see. No, thats right. You can type some out. So much color flour didnt know what to do with so much cauliflower. I think i took it to the overestimate to dates when okay, no stress the yeah yeah. Nonsense im. I made the 19th. He passed away on speaker, so they said he wouldnt peacefully in his sleep. I know it must have been a relief for him to finally. Yes, but it still has the mazda, i go to visit with him 4 times dr. Tom design, his eyes were always shining until he couldnt type in the many more. Then he was just sleeping, speechless, mixed only later did i realize how much these meetings have changed me. The interplay of life and death accompanies us every day. We dont want to acknowledge it, unless dest directly affects us, or someone in our family media, you bought this, this was still ringing my ears. He was never afraid of death, thought he was only afraid of lives, but im leaving me. Why not be here . You go, thanks. Have a good flight for 14. Okay. And then please check in with ms. Britsky in room 13 to see if hes ready. How do i know im bringing you . Not to this extent alicias mrs. Shiva. Oh my god. God, it always sounds delicious. This is fantastic, right. Wow. Just great. I had hoped for this. I think you requested asparagus with potatoes in him . Yes. Because identification todays friday. Right. It smelled like face didnt it . And i was like, yeah, yes, thats much better. Now lets turn this towards mesa, mike, an easy to everything is the my milk is this, so everything is good. Weve got everything. Yes, of course. Good. Thank you. Should pulling up a t. C. Late to by accident on november, november the 18th. Every now and then i experience moments of doubts. Even though im set this, i found my life cooling, working in a hospice. There are also times when i feel pushed to my limits and some things. And i wonder if i can really do this, come accompany people on that journey. Understood like like well, were christening the book. I think congratulations. Thing too, is like september the 6th and speak from time to time when i forget to when my name tag, people asked me how long i has been to patient to you. The total cost is my home phone because i deliberately shaved my hat, but with my hot up less the lesson, ive been thinking of shaving my head down to 3 millimeters for a while. Youre probably just through now this ive actually done it. I feel a lot more feminine than i did before, simply because it feels so much more comfortable. So if you want to feel that maybe im always looking to do something extreme x 3, because we tava since then. So april, the 16th a musical often noun in the hospice, the year is the last and the sense to reopen to stop functioning. Apart from that music transel so much more than just a few notes. Its beautiful to see when it looks something in a persons mind and causes memories to come flooding back. Now, yes, im the fucking guy with arkansas know for version blown Vision Mission yet. So to me it looks great. Wow. This is the nazareth and now look, i know the rights and may the 13th, the she was asleep. I sat down with her intuitively and started to speak. Im sure if she could hear me or not, its not me. I took her hands and started to cry. I could not understand how such a special person could be destroyed by this disease. The defense then, the corners of her mouth turned up and she pressed my hands tightly to her hot time. I cant remember a moment in my life that was this full of looms, love and energy as this one is the, the, thats how good treason. And if it was funny, you think so. I really like you to, so call me writing desktop. Say what do you think about the screaming for a little behind why youre mad on well then you can just like to, to last of it that, that works out maybe okay. And will sadness or even just to feel really happy because i still saw it cuz sometimes its just nice to scream. Yeah. 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