high school is a misfit, that you have this deep insecurity about who you re supposed to be. you know how sometimes last thing you said echos in your brain and i keep sounding stupider? and you have to say something else just to make it stop. oh, i just remembered. i owe you $30. my so-called life was not necessarily the show the cheerleader or captain of the football team were watching. they were watching 90210 . maybe it was the ones that didn t recognize themselves in 90210 are now watching my so-called life . de marco asked if you were getting a sex change. i don t want to be a girl. i just want to hang with girls. ricky was out on the show eventually and that was a story line treated with great sensitivity. and i belong nowhere. with no one. that i don t fit.