for whatever reason, ashleigh just didn't get out, that will never be explained. because ashleigh did die in my car, there's always going to be that sense of, "could i have done more? could i have done things differently?" but at the same time, if i allow myself to constantly relive that moment and constantly wonder, then i'm not helping anybody. >> we're homeless. we have nothing. we've lost a daughter. you know, allyson's in critical condition. the doctors are not giving us any hope. our entire existence was being with allyson and jason and just holding ourselves together. >> coming up -- a daring ride down the mountain. >> i did not want to drive off that edge so i started yelling, "i can't see the road."