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The my name is up and its been some fun. So my name is robin diaz. Im 25. 00, but im starting to become a social worker on foot. I live near frankfort and im trans spinoza. That means the gender i was assigned to birth is wrong with it doesnt fit this type. I dont have, it just means just have can use list of the nation. Theres nothing there. This is ok. I know that now and its ok that theres nothing with the kids that are past the term that fits best as a gender and buying their usually tools. I dont know if its in my gene is leaking. I definitely didnt choose any of the the higher the set scans and then this one then have a still not so much. Yep. And then he, but hes possible for me to go to and i walk across the street and people look at me and want to categorize me as a man and i promise. And whenever im out in public and i noticed that im seeing is a man that people address me is that something young man, its money and stuff like that. Im about to dismiss. Thats what people think. When they look at my body type of cup a bit, thats what i want it and want to achieve its advice. Video to its been the full mismatch. All glazing savannah, im very happy not to be seen as a woman anymore. How about being seen as a man isnt quite right either this, any of us put the most people dont see that theres another option in housing, but there are more than just to generalize the the mist mentioned. I know that most people arent being mean i found it. They just dont understand about what happens over and over and over again. It might be the post i find it exhausting to endure all the time. Also, how does this my home own do this is my hormone, jones. Mean . I didnt talk of like im putting it on my arms every day for a year now. And its me, my voice deeper, mazda, so i understand i can grow a beard. Yeah, ill just move on to the the hello. My name is calvin. Something time in the village. I its yeah. Basically to go buy off. Yeah. So try it. House. Yeah. Think as soon its been hard to hear via the kind of hard today because im due for a mistake. Let me check up. I have everything removed in the doctors checking to make sure everything is here. And one of the houses must be a mice. And im, im crap, i just stood up because they bothered me most about my body apart from my voice, with the breasts fisting simply because i couldnt either because it was too much. And the people says that, oh my god, you must be a woman because there are presents, there are only got the most and calls and it will by just little this not all. I think it was just an area that i never considered my body cup that never belonged to me, but that was never a part of i need. Im tired from you and the surface of human vic, to me said, i always wanted to con cup. I believe my own body should make me feel comfortable and secure. If you look at the bottom from the in the, as soon as i found out that there was something i could do about that this, it was very liberating to select some. But us be, once i knew it was possible that i could do it, i dont like it was clear to me that i wanted to go through with kind of this my home on the inside of my milk thoughts build us all the photos of the really dont like seeing photos of me with the breasts are still clearly visible along the name. I dont like nastiness because i just see a completely different person it under because a Stranger Thing you sent us on this. We dont want to present myself that way either whos present to you in the state. Thats why im covering my face a little bit of this stuff because it just doesnt feel good. The brothers, i had to scroll down through the middle of it to button the fittest needs for us to wear like having a 3rd arm or something finished, something completely wrong in my body. I couldnt touch the lesson thats consistent. When i looked down at myself when i just thought it was terrible, i really couldnt cope with it. It on there was something i had from everyone. Got a stomach thrown heaps of selling it and the suspect a little bit robin, would you come with me . Hello. Hello. Hello. Thank you my, im, are you okay . This way right in here. So i, if you go under via phone and take a seat here on the left. Perfect. How are you know, hes doing great so far. Yeah, yes. I assume your quality of life as improvement on the image. Right . Yeah, yes, very much cover. My body feels completely different to me and i can touch it all and it feels good. It feels like me if youre close to probably. Yeah. Yeah, totally havent the shirt wouldnt have worked before because my shoulders are broader now and ones who need different sized clothes. Ill have to figure out where to find something that fits managed by spending time with me sitting in front while it looks good on you. You wear it . Well. Actually id like to see how things are looking right now for that. I would ask you to take off your chair and 5. So lets lets estimate assessment for the categories. The 1st time i saw my flight up, her body was at the hospital for hours after surgery. Still p, shawn, i didnt have a mirror, but i just had to change it as i could went down the front. When i noticed that these mountains were gone, im a ton of the back of it, and then i could see my belly button. Im just going to men bolton out of the yes. Why . It felt like so. How coming home actually concession is the opposite. The scars have faded quite a bit, so i notice theres a bit of stretching here. Right. So yeah, probably because im right handed. Assigned to that, so it looks like you massage this well in the meantime, as i recommended to think, i think the scars will get better with time. Association fee can continue massaging them. But overall, i think your upper body looks more masculine. Edit suits you very well. Thank you. The 55th, always pretty tough and i think for those with this issue, the most important thing is simply to be accepted. They dont want to take away anybody elses freedom. They just want to be appreciated and accepted in their own freedom. This isnt some kind of frivolous process. It involves getting many expert opinions, changing your legal status, and who knows what else of each other. Its just not something you decide to do on a whim. Try that this will be, well, if you need anything, come back any time to eat outside. Thank you. Thank you. Im not a new person. My personality is still the same, but this shadow self is finally gone. As i skipped the fellow to design, there are those who say i just want attention and sometimes is specifically about being a non binary person identity and gauge about. So when you look at how long the journey i embarked on really use them on this, on what it takes to get where i am now, then is that its just so much less on. I didnt choose. This is from voice been this is sophia and no, i dont want attention on line semester kind of make some kind of just name list. I didnt even go through with all these operations just to get some attention also next on the human side. So applies in young time when i was between 13 and 23 was the worst of my life. So smoke, not just one of my Old School Advice and images i was in the middle and high school here for 5 or 6 years from 6 out along the dial. Fedloan bank, theyre on the blue bench and thats where our costs would hang out at lunchtime. But it was always an outside or in the loan, a bunch of other images up. So that brings back old emotions as a new field. Ill just have to kind of find that. And i only have any friends because they all thought it was weird illusion. And my classmates would often just make up words to tease me. Yeah, i think i forgot to find one word, for example, was farming because i didnt shave my legs, sign well and was considered on high genex some end of the a tough on its own conflict guide me about few people made fun of me. That would be invited to a party that wasnt even have the rest of them and for this one. So in the patio and so for an attendance will be taught to me. If you listen to you can further on it all started when i was young. I realized i didnt fit in with the girls, and i didnt fit in with the boys. The girls just did girls stuff and i found it strange mass. Lindas fun, but i wasnt at home with the boys either. Im and used by the office. I didnt know where i belonged to him as if i were to tell me, i still havent processed that yet. Its deep within me. So its no teeth. And it seemed like i used to put into it and they couldnt talk to my parents, family or friends that kind of want because they didnt know how to put it into words. That was, this is mr. News was what im going to, i didnt fit in anywhere. He was sort of stuck in limbo because i couldnt stand out. So i started trying to fit in with the girls because thats where i supposedly belong. I had a, im trying to find me. I took photos and create a new look at a photo is its always very strange mag, i think thats the best word for it. The best of what the field via because i know thats me and thats part of my past. But ive lost my connection to the savannah. Forgotten had good about it, have to defend them. So federal one dont talk about myself as a girl either each and because i never was want to, i never was i never will be. Its bonnie ions that only id sign and thats why i dont use my old name anymore. Important because its just not relevant in the morning of of this i feel so much kind of the events of everyone else could soon understand some point in 2018. I left home and i thought to myself, hey, i dont know any peoples work. Were in the mentioned to korea and i came across costs 40 want in frankfort, and specialist and fun. First assessment, fee of a few cents for queer youth center, a safe place for people who work a bi, sexual, a sexual trans or non veneer and tongue. So whos been as ins gonna for me all started here, 2 and a half years ago, the youngest on the phone, just as estimate here. The 1st time i was here, there was an introductory meeting. It was at that meeting that i met people who are unclear for the 1st i asked my yellow to calculate the confusing um one for more importantly, people who are transcends where like me, diesels, into the is my little world kind of explode and it is. And it was like, wow, i think im trans to slope, but im not a trans maam. Ive just been kind of started googling and research quite a bit on the internet to see whats out there. Oh, guns, few internet. Sure. See it. So i quickly came across the term non binary series often because ms. Bean. Yeah. And that word on tied a huge not within making confusing norton didnt have to lose perhaps as a to answer those guns feel like the 1st it was a big release. When done. Com and i was afraid of the youngest because the moment i knew this about myself, which this was, i also knew i couldnt go back because of a key that wouldnt work placement to look in this deed of mens, i had to tell my boyfriend anointed i had to tell my family, well, i had to tell my friends who was this man of a medium. It was time to let the cat out of the bag splendid ends on most of this up club and cousins. I sent it said confound from chris and i have been together for 5 years now. I asked for, and i only came out to him about 2 and a half years ago, but you can go to it. I just mean my partner was trans, wasnt stressful at all. Madison. I showed him videos of people who were non binary of the because it was important to me that hed get to know that as well. And, but this may be new super interested in and super supportive as well inside. And well see, hey, all right, well figure it out somehow. What do you need of . How can i help you . But i cries because i hadnt expected. That is and then i was just like, of course it was incredible. Yeah. Whats the city moment . What was it like for you when i told you when i told you i was track, thats up to something very far from it listed. Um its definitely a lot to absorb. We just have no idea of what that meant for us and how things would change advice that i accepted the challenge or the challenge. Im gonna have to see if anything change for you between us because of in the spring. No, no, just a life of it, but nothing traveling ish next, covey and then not in my name is that may i ask your name, but i dont consciously think about this anymore, but its more subconscious now because its still you see, think its strange that i have a deep voice mails to my hot the mattresses and stuff like that as well, cuz youre supposed to be honest. I dont even notice the attorney language in the middle of the i dont remember what your voice was like before closing time. I just have it in my hand, test us in mind, eligible for the image. I have a view right now as also replace the one that my memory is up in the, on the sides. When i think back to the time before the changes, you still look the same as you do now if you do it by myself, cuz i so a fish design because thats what my head thinks is, right . Its like, its always been this way for the in the mind of fish southern near getting you back over to tech. At 1st i was confused when robin came out to me on business of it because i had no experience with the whole thing. And the incumbent fire of a, but i learned all the terminology and all the things that go with it. And again, just as rather not to, im hanging up just as often down like a few less and then level and what am i feelings for each other . And especially my feelings from robin were not affected, because for me the person is always in the for grant. And it depends on who knows. Looks like there is more to a person than just their gender. So of course after robin came out initially i didnt question or feature because it didnt matter to me what the others talked about as a couple 100 bucks. Yeah, and then so it was very clear to me that we would Stay Together once, decided that as soon as we can kind of thing, just go through them line up to us about seats in the income for a while, i wondered whether this could even work through outside or as wed always been hetero. Yeah. Social norm because that we knew that was going to change and of course that does affect the relationship to the hospital. You. So the question was, how do we do want to be, i think for most people, the whole trans issue is still very for this in my own should exist just lots of different mac symptoms. Yes, there is more acceptance. Active tons about acceptance is not understanding. This is theres a different used escapes. Strange people keep getting assault if it comes to the lets, lets just the other day in frankfort on the trans woman was attacked right on the street. The screen you only thing discrimination like that makes me so angry must be so um, but also very, very sad. Told me i realize other people were denying me the right to have my own identity. My own life feed me and my lima things arent going well politically, either off the pretty take mazda has kind of quinta, look at hungry or poland gun at a point on goal and is currently setting up l g, b t q, frequently. Be chiefly, its on line where people who work, we are not welcome using this alpha induced and a yeah. So, so what is that going to do . Do you think youre not welcome here in the world you think youre not allowed to exist on the success team . Smells inside this time. Absolutely been discriminated against, but i am anyway. I mean its pretty simple. Come on them. Whenever i get letters, its always a very strange feeling for me then because they always call me the wrong thing and i said you might have had so im going to disclose investments and this, and im like, i think it would be best if that were simply a minute, its not because its not necessary when needed. I use meal pronoun, but not this new one on this, and theres a whole list of them because i said, father put on, they get something done. I chose the pronoun and they tell me a, the spelled n i and oscar o as in, in the best. So for example, instead of saying that he plays with his dog, and that would be in place with means dont stucco. Kinda smack um on the phone. Sure, that might seem complicated. It 1st of an but with a little practice can you get used to it . So pushing it from one dime, im missing the conflicts and it also can, i think getting out of your comfort zone is the least you can do to except the persons hiding the fact that the tip its sonya is saying that it has its just a little word means we can change so much as this know, im kind of lost my surface and then con, maam weve incorporated so much english into the german language. Language is always changing. I cant understand how you can be so ignorant and how you can have such a hard time with adding a few words to your vocabulary name on the account kind of thing. Even mama, dear mom, do dad, im writing this letter to you so that you can take, however much time you need as you read, i guess my type name cont, as such as a few things for them. It was very afraid of coming out to my parents because i knew that they had no contact with your people at all. So you mentioned how was it the company didnt even know anyone who is gash woods and somebody should be. Thats why i didnt talk to them 1st, the assessment, then i decided to write them a letter because i didnt want to experience their 1st reaction by this the estimate. So in this upcoming budget, its been kind of how im not a woman. Ive been ok, but im also not a man like i thought, and yet i remain simply who i am, who i have always been to the flex meant always so that i may change my appearance and when i am still the same child, you have always loved english tie, it may take your time here and get in touch. When you want to know more about this is when shamia does the image and i wish that you will accept me for who i am as to without having to justify myself to you. I love you is need boyce robin hobbin to meet us in the attempt to my surprise, my parents responded very well and what type of shame 1st my mother wrote me on. Whats that this thing is she told me she loves me very much. And thank me for the letter. Thank toughening fees on mind. Papa had it been my dad said he didnt care because nothing had changed jobs despite emmys infinity. It wont lose me except because im still his child and always wanna be on this. Yeah. Dont need to end up spinning as i can when that result a lot of great boost hello me, im me gets im doing well when you is when isnt that in some larger room . My parents didnt worry though that this might not be the right thing for me to do, but i found that they just didnt know me. Well. I know i can come and talk to them a lot and told them that, you know, this is right for me is like me, is just trust me. You know this, this fits how it can be done and how does it mean . And then they did trust me once and now they can see that im doing better despite its talk soon, bye, choose the machine, my inter chronologist today. Can you check my blood work every 3 months route and gives me a new prescription for my hormones . Gets up somebody, the homeowner conduct the flu . Yeah, something to me except. Oh um, do you have a video that are recorded and edited myself, where you can see and hear the changes the hormones have made on, especially in my voice is off in the times and stimulate free by the same kind of because name, there are no real side effects, the hormone treatment will flush ice time, only thing im worried about as being dependent. Just as i said, i think its been a, this been opinion here. Im dependent on doctor is giving me a prescription so i can keep taking hormones. Name come on, donald has been around as well are sometimes im worried, what would happen if that were to stop somehow that i couldnt get them anymore . Assistance makes me, you must unaccustomed to come to the counter to come here and then lets mon, i remember last time you reported that you were still not quite satisfied with the effect of this hormone therapy, in your case, testosterone test the whole is around. So friedman editor, yeah, the dosage was lower than that. It was indeed lower. I was making something i wasnt doing so well. I had some mood swings in, so to leave this place an order, lets talk about increasing the doses. Thats possible. As long as we monitor things, this would contribute initially. For me its important to note that being trans is neither a disease nor a disorder. I see it as a normal bearing and experienced by some members of our society. Its just a way of being in the world often that science is f mazda. Its my 1st time climbing since kind of stuck to me without the breast. Its very different. Miss douglas comes in. I dont have to focus on how it looks or whats in the way. I can just call him without anything interfere and kitchen who is this the good . Yeah. This is from an investment funding go to top. I felt very supported when i came out to my best friend and, and things changed very quickly that soon enough. And then she asked me directly, what name and program she should be using. Now the vision and how i define myself and the seems to be for me as a discover. And i think it breaks the ice between us a little more fun to being one of the 1st people to find out about it was the ultimate proof that you trusted me. Ok. So the promise was ups is im gonna didnt change anything in the friendship itself. And if anything has deepened it a bit this in. So yeah, i think so to call the field follow reading definitely seems to be a lot happier in that piece. With each passing day, you notice more and more just how well robin is doing. Now, scrubbing netscape, so miss from minecraft and ive definitely come into my own defeat and body and soul. Yeah. But in society, its a different story. Yes, i have reached my personal goal. I always, most of i still have to fight until this goal is valued by others. So i can be accepted just as i am. So i can simply be a land lease even been in the society the the the good shame everyone knows that procrastination is when you put off work until it catches up with you. Now researchers are saying that our ancestors have the same problem. Roosters, im sure, and tips for handling your time to get started in good shape. The our specialties space to with the luxury flavored with a touch of art. Culinary excellence european saver. 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