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And for the first time, i got it. i saw that it was planned. i saw video tapes that they had made. i saw dylan in a way that i had never seen him before. they were talking about what they were going to do. it showed him with weapons. it was horrifying to see him in that mode. i had been grieving so much for this lost, precious child, and remembering who he was, and that was the point that i realised who he was to everyone else in the world. everything died in my world. god died.

My heart was aching. it was a day ofjust waiting and waiting, not understanding what was happening, not knowing if dylan was alive or dead, not knowing if he had really hurt other people or if this was all kind of twisted mistake. all day long ijust kept asking the police over and over again, where's my son, is my son dead? late in the afternoon, one of them sent to me, yes, he is.

So he did know where the key for the cabinet was. the whole point was to go, leave me alone, take the guns, get out of here. so he still knew where i kept the key. they continued to ask about, you know, guns and ammunition, and i said, i don't know where he got the ammunition. i didn't have any in there, i thought we had shot it all when we went out in the desert. for months i was in denial. they said that the boys did all these terrible things, that they not only killed and hurt people, but they will say awful racist things and sadistic things, and ijust shut that out of my mind, i said dylan...

How to crawl, i was with him when he learned how to walk and i will be with him when he learns how to crawl and how to walk again. dylan had been in trouble for stealing but he had just gotten off of diversion. they said dylan and eric had done so beautifully they wanted to let them off early. dylan had been accepted at four colleges of his choice and got into the school of his choice, the university of arizona. he was in school plays, he had a job after school. he was getting passable grades. he was not a stellar student but he was doing 0k. from what i saw, he was on the right track. there w...

But at this stage in my life, i guess i would say, yes, i am. you know, of course i would have wished that these horrible things hadn't happened. but certainly i'm grateful that i've reached a place where life is ok and there's plenty to be thankful for. i had friends, and friends who knew dylan, people who i worked with, neighbours. people who were incredibly kind and supportive, thank god, because i could not have survived without that connection. do you bring a casserole to somebody whose son has just shot up a school? that is not part of our cultural lexicon. but, yes, my neighbours did. a...