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Yeah. when my father was given a parole hearing, it just spun me out. i was frightened, you know. i felt unsafe. >> to keep the carsons behind bars, jen has connected online with each of the victims' families, to fight their parole. and today she's meeting the family of the carsons' last victim in person for the very first time. >> john offered a ride to my father and susan and susan stabbed him repeatedly, and then my father shot him. >> why do you want to meet the family members of the people your father killed? i want to tell them that i'm so deeply sorry for the loss of their brother, and ...

Mom gave me this life changing news. >> do you remember what your mom said to you that day? >> yeah. i remember every second of that moment. she said, i told you that daddy was really sick and that's why he couldn't see you anymore. and daddy got more sick and he hurt a bunch of people. then i looked up and i said, are the hurt people dead? she said, yes, and that's when she started crying. >> that's the day your life changed forever? >> yeah. >> during the years jen and her mom were in hiding, jen's father married susan and embarked on a very dark path. in 1983, along california's highway 101...

Shame and sadness i felt for these victims and this fear that i was doomed. >> when did you stop feeling that way? >> i don't think that has stopped. >> jen's life was forever changed by the actions of her father. i'm about to meet another whose world was also turned upside down by a man who became one of the first jihadi terrorists in america. >> i had been dealing with my father's legacy for such a long time. i grew up and i realized that my mind had been poisoned. ♪ ♪

The fear that i would grow up to hurt people as you did, i hold no hatred or anger towards you, only hurt and sorrow for the lives that were lost. >> did you ever give that to him? >> no. >> you don't think jim is in there anymore? >> no. he's this guy now. >> this was incredibly difficult to deal with 30 years ago and it will be difficult to deal with tomorrow, but i no longer hide. i know longer keep it a secret. >> today, jen is very open about the struggles in her life. she inherited her father's mood disorder and takes medication to manage her anxiety and depression. >> would you say your...

♪ you want it touched up a little bit? go ahead and look at me. >> this is jen carson. at 43 years old, jen has returned home to care for her mother, with whom she share as close bond and a dark history. >> the reason i was helping clean out my mom's house and i found a bunch of girl scout patches, and i also found some pictures. >> jen's childhood started out like many others, with a mom and dad who loved her. >> those are my parents, jim and lynn. that's me. my mom was teaching and father staying home with me. >> there's your dad doing your hair. >> yeah, i remember him doing my hair eve...