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[ bleep ] die, i feel so utterly bad, i haven't felt this bad in years. >> i could read in the intensity of his words and in the conversation we had over the phone that he had passed over a certain line. that -- he had never passed it before. and i was terrified. >> two months later she sent an e-mail to john's parents telling them for the first time in 11 years we find ourselves in the unfortunate position of both being depressed at the same time. two days later, john was dead. coming up, was it murder? suicide or an accident? >> i heard that sound. i will never forget it. the rattling breath...

>> ann said she walked around the side of the bed, held his hand and stroked his arm. >> as i was kneeling next to him all the blood started to fall through the mattress and was pooling at my feet. >> ann grabbed a radio and called for help. the head of the security was one of the first to respond. >> when you first arrived here at the house what did you see? >> john was in his bed. he was lying there lifeless. he was dead. i gave all of my attention to ann, who was very upset. she hugged me saying i tried to stop it. i tried to stop it but i could not. >> ann says she called her older brother...

Future. if you are again acquitted at the retrial and it ends there -- >> yes. >> -- what do you want to do with the rest of your life? where do you go from here? >> i know what john wanted me to do with the refuge and a lot of that will depend on the resources that are left. he wanted me to start helping people and create the refuge and retreats for people with mental illnesses. >> what do you want for you? >> i want peace for john. because i know he's not at peace now. >> john bender's ashes are in an urn at what ann says was his favorite view, a refuge that she's trying to save, a paradise ...

The house by the suitcase load. >> we actually met. >> ann says the gem business was not a source of contention. >> it was a collection we had always wanted to make. we both loved gems since we were young. to him it was a sound investment. >> not only was it a sound financial investment but ann says john bought her the stones also as a way to cope with their mental illnesses. >> whenever i was acutely ill, john always wanted to buy me stuff. so he started buying me at first, beads, a particular type of sapphire that changes color based on the light. >> john did more than surround ann with prec...

Instinctively. >> i reared up on my knees, lunged towards him. and in the process of putting my hands around his, we fell towards each other. and he had the gun loaded and cocked ch cocked i know the way we felt towards each other. >> a single gunshot entered the back of john's head. ann would watch as her husband drifted away. >> i heard that sound. i'll never forget it. >> that rattling breath that i had read about, heard about.