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It's my real downfall. to be honest with you. i got a big heart and a lot of love for some of the guys. i got to pull back. like i told them before, i love you, but i've got to go. i got to succeed this time. i'll die like them guys and i -- look at this. this is a castle to me, you guys. i love it. i'm so happy. >> and truthfully, roy should have been here with you. how do you feel knowing you had planned this? >> i'm disappointed. he's better than prison. he's really a good man. honestly, i love him to death. he's better than all that prison [ bleep ]. he just didn't hold on. if he had held ...

Days. i'm that tired to where i feel nauseous. i'm really, really nervous. i'm afraid i'm not going to make it, you know what i mean? i see these guys coming in and out, in and out, in and out. and it's time for you to get out and you start thinking, and even my own twin brother couldn't handle the pressure. it's terrible. you write country songs about this kind of [ bleep ]. the things that hurt me the most are the things that i crave the most, women, booze, drugs. those cycle through my mind. you take care, bro. love you too, man, take care. what i got to do is carry around a mirror and whip...

Men. i'm 40 years old, so i'll be honest with you, i'm a little flattered by it, because i ain't no 20-year-old dude no more. i'm 40 years old, man. and to have a lot of girls and women making comments about how i look and stuff like that, it's nice. >> but roy's parole serves as a constant reminder that a return to prison is just one mistake away. >> about five, six times a day, this beeper beeps off and i got to call. if this beeper goes off after my curfew and i don't call from this land line here at the house, i can get a felony case for escape. it's very serious. very serious. this is my ...

>> about two months ago. >> he would act out, though. he would get up to that point where he would act out. and once he calmed back down, he was reasonable. but he would get worked up. >> point of no return. >> several years prior to becoming the warden at limon, travis tranney was a lieutenant at colorado state. and had been involved in several of roy's cell extractions. >> the last four cell extractions that was ever done with him when he got sprayed, i was the one that sprayed. that was the last straw. he said he didn't want to play anymore. >> if you don't cuff up we're going to administer...

I hope it happens. and i'm looking forward to going to work and just living my life. i got to be cautious on who i associate with. it's my real downfall. to be honest with you. i got a big heart and a lot of love for some of the guys. i got to pull back. like i told them before, i love you, but i've got to go. i got to succeed this time. i'll die like them guys and i -- look at this. this is a castle to me, you guys. i love it. i'm so happy. >> and truthfully, roy should have been here with you. how do you feel knowing you had planned this? >> i'm disappointed. he's better than prison. he's re...