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>> that's a good one. >> we'll show you to your room, but we won't put a mint on your pillow. >> joseph giroux is also unhappy with the sparse accommodations of his segregation cell and has asked to move to general population. awaiting trial on 14 charges related to an alleged crime spree that ended with his arrest inside a tulsa casino with a loaded shotgun, he could be in jail for a while. he's already spent 17 years of his life in prison on various drug convictions and accessory to murder. he doesn't have a lot to show for it except for the tattoos he acquired there. >> says "white pride." ...

To live it and try to cope with it. >> you know, i'll try to change. i want to be different. i don't want to be like this. i never want to give up hope. when you give up hope, it's over. i mean, basically, like i've always had like this suicidal voice in my head every day, like telling me, you know what i mean, to kill myself. like every day. there's never been a day that went by that i haven't at some point throughout the day thought about killing myself. >> how many times have you tried to kill yourself? >> a few. a few. >> do i see a jesus tattoo on your neck there? "jesus saves"? is that p...

Simply let somebody shoot me up with something and i didn't know what it was. >> giroux thinks his meth may have been laced with a drug known on the streets as bath salts, which prompts extreme aggressive behavior and paranoia. >> it was like i was in a dream and i kept waking up here and there for the crazy parts, like pow! hit the car. you know, what i mean? now i'm shooting in this house. like i don't remember driving. i don't remember how i get to these different places, none of that. so, you know, was that bath salt? i have no idea. but it wasn't meth. >> giroux says he started doing meth...

I have it tattooed in the middle of my chest. i mean, it was bound to happen. it's a part of life. it's like, you know, i miss her. i mean, i miss -- it wouldn't matter if she was three cells down from me, i wouldn't have no contact with her, so i would miss her the same. >> you know, you're two peas in a pod. >> i do know that. i do. sometimes that's our blessing, and sometimes, ugh.

>> cut my throat one time and i just filled it in, colored the scar in and branded, basically, "jesus saves" on my neck. more of a reminder to me when i looked in the mirror every day. >> giroux's tattoos might represent opposing forces in his life, but he says that's been an issue for a long time, and now he wants to deal with it. >> i put a request in to the psych doctor about speaking to him about issues that i've had pretty much since i was young that i've kept hidden because i didn't want people to think i was crazy. >> joseph, i think, has been struggling for many years. he didn't want t...