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This thing is he doing its like a big blanket. Everything just builds perfect like your body dont hurt you just feel like a new person you dont think about the negative you dont think about nothing that says nothing matters and when im playing i am going on. My moms on a long line and itll be your manager choking on the ending in his mind are they ok how long are you really i wonder you. Guys are nine am are you can you come in. I dont know are. There any money on there when you. Leave my moms. Ok trying to talk to her you know wake. My email here you know i. Guess. I should change in girl and. They are. Your own. Mom mom. Mom. America is going through the worst drug crisis in its history and its tearing families apart. A generation of children is being neglected abandoned orphaned by parents addicted to opioids. Someone i knew in your destiny to heroin. And then before i knew it was like it was the where if i didnt have it i felt like i was going to die. Heroin is stronger than any human tie. It is stronger than any. Compelling argument. It is stronger than. A religious police it is the devil incarnate. It is evil its the black plague its like a Zombie Apocalypse its death its kind of like youre possessed or son like you dont even care anymore. To tell the story we came to chillicothe to a town in ohio. The state has one of the highest Drug Overdose rates in the country. It seems like almost everyone here knows someone who struggle with drugs. Amanda howards addiction started with a prescription to percocet for back pain. And she later switched to her only because it was cheaper and easier to get. When you were on heroin and just had brody what was it really like ok like i would await your all day make my money and instead of going to whole i would go get my fix then go home and hed already be in bed though i just wasnt there for him like i didnt give him. The extra he needed i didnt spend much time playing with him which he was really really young. But. It makes me sad you know every milestone like these to me make because they dont like me and i missed out on so much of him. You dont know reality your reality is gone. Eventually the cycle kills you if you dont get out im lucky you know because i seen that wake up call i got out i know its there many people have died he didnt get that call. So i had you know im just sitting in the passenger seat my husband comes out of the store and i am completely collapse over he goes to pull me out of the car on purple one light blue like i had a deed he had to do c. P. R. And everything someone called the emergency squad and i dont really remember you know because i was like gone. When you go back to that gas station was your son in your mind yes actually breaks my heart as he was in the back seat when that happened. I was thrilled to be protecting him and i died in front of them. What would have happened with the brody has you not made it out that gas station that he would have a mom. And what would my legacy to my son be like how bad would it be to be a kid and someone to say your mom died like fire for days and then your kids going to think well im almost in a lot of me. You know i know mom would be murdered but you think my mom i dont see people. Like her i dont know whats going on and i think it might be heard something Drug Overdoses are now the leading cause of death for americans under fifty. Thank god i dont hear anything to you do you think if youve. Got one or you know. Theyre calling a possible double overdose people here like in the truck crisis to a war with police in the mts on the front lines. In the last few years theyve responded to more overdose calls than ever its like a tsunami is it. But we dont we just keep going and. The people that serve you know in restaurants the people that work on your car the people in the air landscaping those people are attics. Maybe the first time was a choice the second time may have been a toys but after that the demon has possessed them. The way. They were thinking ok let me see your. Seat alter anything whatever you think you know that youre ok i just let. It. Go. More than one hundred thousand people have died from truck overdoses in the last two years and love. Scenes like this are happening in homes across the country. And when kids are there you can only imagine how the process of. Care when it can affect the cycle of life even before a baby is out of the home. This hospital theres a program for pregnant women who are addicted to opiates. The women are given subutex isnt that a coping with safer for babies but they can still be born addicted to it. How common is it here to have a woman who is pregnant and use it here when. A lot of the women that have been that have come through my group have been heroin users you know. I would say over half of them are here one users. A lot of the girls that i have in this group mothers and fathers also used some of them are still using and then society is like really focused on them because youre pregnant but they dont consider that this woman has been using probably since she was fourteen years old and shes twenty four shes been using for ten years and now shes pregnant and quit using. Its not that simple. You know that not every baby withdrawals more hope in the most the babies but the reality. He is. Fifty five to sixty percent of infants whose mother is on this medicine do withdraw so more do withdrawal than dont some of the signs can be that theyd be crying a lot they can be shaking they can have a temperature you know like when you guys have went through withdrawal your muscle start hurting you know and youll rub your muscles because theyre hurting so bad where you know obviously a baby cant rub their muscles so what babies usually do is they if a lot of times theyll take their arms you know dig them back into the crib like this and then theyll get like a red or sore spot on their arms or elbows or they or they will take their heels and they will dig their heels down into their cribs and then on the back of their heel right here theyll do it like a rock. Just kind of wondering because im so are i have kids i have five kids and i know how hard the first few weeks the first few months are of having a baby at home and now its that and dealing with this and i just wonder so youre scared of that kind of what is that like youre going through that im nervous like my going to have energy to get out of bed at my going to be able to get the baby when hes crying like and i going to have the willpower to want to do this makes her really emotional to think. Why explain that to me but what he feels. Like i feel sick didnt care for him to commitments when. I speak to my grandmother to see if you can. Hold me for. I would be three times off of here you know d. Three times in the last year yes and then i go right back to the same people that sold me the dope doesnt know about died one and youre living it high again is there a moment that you look back on and you remember that you chose her way over your kids. Many a time. To where i would lie to my son time on my way up money for you if there were a v. At the. So you know theres so many times that i have a. Three year old daughter and i have it on her right there beside me the day post thats not good like this she sees what is going. You know youre making a choice youre choosing her went over the wall for your kids what is it internally this that whats the voice in your mind telling you what do you live when im sick i dont care if i have to get through jesus the devil hell or highwater im going to get to that drug cant no matter what my child said here scream ones im going to get to that drug and then ill deal with it as soon as i get it in me and i feel better when you when im so cold chills he is there for your skin to even to touch one of those like if i would take a shower and try to comb my hair and my hair would hurt like this i think yeah like everything on my body. I can sit here and i can admit i chose methamphetamine over my children my flesh and blood and then i believe it was the hardest thing ive ever done you know i had to admit to myself that i did that right here where you use the map and there are one where you would dictate to bo yes. I remember her coming to bother me she wouldnt stop she wondered what her hand green tea was doing high School Member fighting with her and her brother both scream and im not going to use any one might be going to and they say i did. Because im an addict and all g. After so long i love well hell this is somebody else to get high with because i was selfish. You know i still blame myself for her today the things she does. Its concerning its frightening its sad not only for the people who are had exhibit trapped in that. But for their children for their parents for their brothers and sisters for their future. The impact on children as a way before somebody overdoses its the lifestyle that theyre exposed to theyre in a home where the parent may not be able to fix them they may wear the same clothes to school every week. Whether its their left alone whether theyre there pawned off on friends or family might have been there are grandma i dont know. Its grandparents who often step in to fill the void. To be learned to go over raising four granddaughters after both of their parents fell into drugs and the kids were placed in foster care. Get frustrated when he. Either scared his i dont know how to take care of my grandkids and one bedroom place and doing what their temper tantrums and theyre in there screaming. I would never leave go get a shower or i with my clothes on. Yeah for our forty five minutes or until somebody would come and calm me down and talk to me you know and the kids didnt deserve that you know they didnt answer me yelling at them it wasnt their fault. You know everything just happened so fast. Just got. Alone in my life. And then i get a phone call and i have to be in town to pick up four girls you know home of my own to raise them. But i made it there in fifteen minutes and i got them and i tried. To look you have. Years of energy in you two periods. I dont believe ive got fourteen years of parenting my health isnt good but i know i have to do it and thats what keeps me going. Take that because i dont do it whos going to go back foster care. Or theyre going to be living in a home full of druggies and alcoholics. I dont want to let go she should tell me to my babies. I take care of them like you have and i know that your baby but youre still a child so here to take care of your babies. You know. That that would have destroyed her to have lost them three kids. Years old looking at what shes losing yes yesterday as she said take care of the girls that she was two years old erica did with baby after baby after baby and she just took the road on its mommy when everybody was drunk and then uses the. And she still beat her about it was over because she still wants to be mommy and i try to get her to be a child. You know like what would she do when she was being mommy. The youngest who was in diapers she would diaper her bathe her she still sometimes i have to come home and shell be in there reading about water and trying to get a bounce and if i cant make it do some shell tell im making and what does it mean to have appeared from. Their kids alarms yeah they missed out on basketball games the Little Things that you dont get to do twice theyre gone. For you just like this in this picture where was you doing. With. Your kid because graduation the. Kid. Mom and dad didnt get to go to all this a march her become somebody gets what just would take her first steps. To get to see this one graduate from stuff you know. Not this last time so they that they miss not a lot theyre not going to see your bowl games in your grade so in your report cards when you bring home an age site might have it all they dont know you are. Yeah but im just saying you know i have. If theyre not there all the time to do these things with you grandma was the one that does that with us. And when they say cry and i have to tell them its ok because grandma is here and im going nowhere. And trying to give them some stability and some security. To hang on until. I tell my long time lifes unfair youve got to make it what it is and what you want and i dont want these kids to think the world names and because nobody owes anybody nothing. Make your life what it is living here. And nothings nothings fair. Living. Inside the world the way it is today cant. You cant. Theyre getting love from their grandparents and stuff thats not the same as the mother father and i. Just doesnt. Whenever their parents arent active in their care there is a hole in their life. Why did they abandon me. Why didnt they love me enough to take care of me. Why didnt they love me enough to stop them what they were doing. Why was my worth. That deserve recurrent. Their entire life. My dad was in the pills and opiates he died of a combination of opiates and prescription drugs so he passed away of accidental Drug Overdose my mom was into heroin says my mom and dad on their wedding day about nineteen or twenty and my dad from the day that he married her to the day that he died looked exactly the same he never changed if you know if there are using drugs or yeah they were there were you know. I was put into a foster home for a little bit when i was young and i ended up packing to go with my grandmother how did you find out when you were a little kid that something was a right with your parents well i always figured that it was cigarettes because nobody is going to tell a six year old your parents were on drugs in sixth grade my mom took me outside and she was like alexis you know sixth grade and still believe in santa claus hes not real and i remember just like staring at her like what and she was like hes not real and all the lies my mother had been telling me up until that point kind of fell apart for me santa claus was kind of like a metaphor for like the drugs because it was on that same day where i realized there was something more and then the cigarettes it was like a loss of innocence for me do you have much of a relationship with her do. Not really we we were having a really Good Relationship for a while and she had just gotten out of prison but then she got back with her old boyfriend and i know that the old boyfriend leads to getting back into her old life so i own i dont want to be a part of it. I have gotten used to saying about my mother as great as your grandma has been to she fill that hole in your heart thats the shape of your mom you know. You dont get if my parents werent ever on drugs say when have i ever met thats just how far back that our news goes i mean my parents started out on weird and they ended up heroin and opiates and its i mean i want to been born if it wouldnt have been for. The choices that were made and sometimes i wish that i hadnt just for the. The life i might have given him here. With me. And my parents were never on drugs. And i just wish they were done drugs but youre on your very existence is tied up in not meeting collision drugs so how do you reconcile that i mean their lives are even more precious than my own i think when a life is taken away from drugs its just not fair and even though i treasure the life i have i just sometimes think that i sometimes just. I wish that it could have been but for the. Nine one one. Three. Not awake right now this chill of coffee in the rest of the nation struggle to contain the damage. Theres no doubt that the next generation is being shaped by. A question which will take years to resolve just how. The norm back in the day. A mom my dad and two dogs two kids. Maybe a parent maybe a grandmother maybe an uncle or maybe a foster home maybe just. Me with nothing set in stone nobody really looks at their head and can say youre going to have a wonderful life when youre older again. Because theyre not sure anymore. Youre gone through all the. More concrete a lot of it is. Raging. Open the door to this is just hate it was there. He opened the door to turn it into a physical reality that the answer lies in the. Old line six eight in trucks america at this time i was just there. Business update brought to you by always going places together. Business updates brought to you by cattle they always going places together. And. This is al jazeera