janek is beautiful, they're 22 years old, just graduated from college, but it was a long road. when they were in the nicu in the translucent box that i describe in the piece, they were stuck with needles all the time, multiple blood transfusions, i think it was seven. they would bleat, because their vocal cords were not developed, they went down to 600 grams, and it was difficult. when we came back to the united states they had for a brief tie high roe encephalitis, seizures, would have to go to the emergency room every year because they would get pneumonia. it was very challenging. i think, you know, i also was coming back to the united states, i suffered postpartum depression, which was undiagnosed for several years. later when i did finally do see a therapist, she said i had a