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Welcome to Outlook I'm Matthew Bannister today what's it like to give birth to a baby in a war zone Dr Merriam Alger Ghani knows only too well she went into labor during an ass strike in the Yemeni capital Sana'a in 2015 suddenly a big strike and the home it's taking so I become free and then my blood become high I cannot control it by mitigations So I want to the hospital they told me they need to. See immediately in the hospital the atmosphere was tense even her doctors were panicking enlist me and try to hold the phone and try to communicate with his family I hated me told them we are civil like this and the medical thought She is my friend and she is just right and I would only just try to. Try to come down more of Mariam story after the latest news. Hello this is David Austin with the b.b.c. News the European Union's chief negotiator on how Britain leaves the block has been setting out his priorities for the 1st phase of negotiations Michel Barnier said they consisted of agreeing a way to calculate Britain's financial obligations guaranteeing the rights of e.u. Citizens living in the u.k. And agreeing a mechanism for resolving disputes in the European Court of Justice he stressed there wouldn't be a brick said Bill to punish Britain he said it was time to tackle the uncertainty caused by Britain's decision to leave the U.K.'s decision to leave to your opinion as no calls 10 months of uncertainty. We need to remove that interest and it is our time to start negotiating as soon as the u.k. Is ready to come to the table we should we should start negotiating. The clock is ticking Philippine lawmakers have rejected the appointment of the country's controversial environment secretary 10 months after she took up the position Regino Lopez angered many in the Philippines mining industry when she ordered the closure of more than half the country's existing mines citing environmental concerns Celia Hatton has more details Regina or Gina Lopez's supporters called her an earth warrior they're holding candlelight ceremonies to mark their disappointment she's been formally ousted as environment secretary others are cheering those in the Philippines powerful mining industry says Ms Lopez's move to close mines threaten more than a 1000000 jobs in one key point in her confirmation hearing she challenged one of the heads of the Appointments Commission arguing his family's Mining Corporation had destroyed a mountain in the Philippines the main Syrian opposition delegation has walked out of the latest round of Russian backed cease fire talks in a Stana the capital of Kazakstan for the 1st time a u.s. State Department official is attending the meeting as an observer hears our Arab affairs editor Sebastian Asha the delegation representing rebel fighters on the ground suspended their participation in the Istana talks shortly after they resumed for a 4th round it says the move is in protest of continuing government strikes on civilians the talks which are being held in parallel with the un Geneva process would you to focus on the idea of establishing areas where fighting could be controlled and access given to humanitarian aid Russia is describing these as deescalation zones in eastern Guta on the outskirts of Damascus and southern Syria a convoy of military vehicles. The NATO led mission in Afghanistan has been attacked by a suicide bomber in the capital Kabul officials say at least 8 people have been killed and more than 25 others injured the Afghan Interior Ministry said most victims were civilians the Islamic state group said it carried out the attack will news from the b.b.c. The Japanese prime minister Shinzo has said he wants to see changes introduced to the country's post-war pacifist constitution by 2020 in a message marking the document 70th anniversary Mr our best said the revision should make explicit a reference to Japan's self-defense forces to avoid any suggestion they may be unconstitutional the charter imposed by the United States after the 2nd World War denies Japan the right to possess a military force China has issued tighter rules governing online news providers bringing them into line with the strict communist party controls placed on more traditional media outlets Johnston worth reports from Beijing contents on China's Internet has always faced heavy scrutiny and censorship but compared to newspapers in broadcasters a regulatory gray zone has allowed a few online news portals to produce relatively independent reporting these new regulations appear to close it down completely they cover reports and opinion published by blogs websites search engines and messaging apps a Russian court has upheld a suspended 5 year prison sentence against the leading opposition activist Alexina Valmy the retrial was brought after an earlier conviction was overturned following a ruling by the European Court of Human Rights Mr Novelli says the case was designed to prevent him standing in next year's presidential election his team insisted the ruling would not affect his decision to take part. Hundreds of doctors at one of India's biggest hospitals are starting self-defense classes this month to protect themselves from violent patients and relatives the lessons taught by martial arts champions will be held daily at the All India Institute of Medical Sciences in the capital Delhi a recent survey in one hospital suggests as many as 40 percent of doctors suffered verbal or physical attacks last year that's the latest b.b.c. News you're with Outlook the program that takes you around the world through extraordinary personal stories I'm Matthew Bannister. Today will meet the woman in Compton California who's using horses to keep kids out of street gangs there are a lot of young people who are really at some place a girl so that's how we started we have you only here to live right here you would always say now the horses are miking also we tune into the radio station that offers a lifeline to the fisherman of Kerala that's coming later but we start by focusing on the innocent victims of the conflict in Yemen over the last 2 years thousands of people have been killed in clashes between the forces of a Saudi led coalition backing the government and who the rebels some expectant mothers caught up in the fighting have lost their children while others have given birth in terrifying circumstances one of them is Dr Merriam Alger Garny who works for the charity Save the Children helping pregnant women in the area around the capital Sana'a she draws on her own experience of giving birth in 2015 my name told me how she felt when she found out she was expecting when I was become bigger and I'm still happy as a little my baby the previous one he died and before that they have some miscarriage so it's like. Pregnancy for me but when the border started. I was so afraid so you've had miscarriages before and so you thought that the pregnancy might be a risk yes because the stress that miscarriage increases with the stress also my medical situations become deteriorated I had hypertension and diabetic and whatever I hear the airplane was my plan should become high so I'm afraid to lose my baby and I would if you could describe what it was like to live day by day during your pregnancy with raids every day most of the time we hear the air strike in databases events if they are not targeting our area just to hear the airplane it's a terrible believe me and that is not safe place we just have a flat and you know you are worried that you would be targeted so even if we go to the street maybe they will target the streets of my situations become due to it so can you tell me about the actual day that you went into labor what stage of the pregnancy was that in and what happened I live near the expense of Penthouse and it's also this is the targeted area suddenly there's a big strike and the home it's shaking so I become frayed and stress then my blood pressure become high I cannot control it by medications so I want to the hospital and they told me they need to and that pigment immediately so it's less than 32 weeks so go through the pleated liver a very early birth yet when I'm giving birth to not I'm aware because they have spinal anesthesia it's not fun and it's easy the hospital in a military area. That time they target area and near to the hospitals so imagines the stress that I was go through it I feel that I will die and I will die that time and then after my blood pressure become high and they put me in a dark room but the stress is increased because I hate. The airplane and the air strike one. I think the hospital will be destroyed when I'm in it and even they try and the medical doctors and nurses to try to become can but you cannot I cannot because I just see it I'm afraid about my life I'm afraid about my baby and even I think that the medical doctor she will die and Jannot complete the operations and a lot of things but things came into my mind and presumably Marion that the medical staff must be very very concerned very worried for their lives yes because for example the anesthetic illust me and try to hold the phone and try to communicate with his family is here and we told them Don't afraid we are civil like this and the medical doctor she's my friend and she is just right and our agency try to reach Koran and Satish try to let me come down don't worry don't worry but even the light becomes flushing it's terrible to the lights were flickering and coming on and off yes yes yes I saw the face of the medical staff they are afraid and they try to do their best but at the end they are a human being of course and how long did the air raid go on for do you have any sense of time they deliver at 5 till 11 pm I still hear even if there is no air strike you just hear the air play we become more afraid from the airplane because you don't know where the bombs going to land when you hear the airplane Yes Yes And it's become more of. Stressful situation you know you just said well the next and the next would be targeted you can't imagine it. It's a horrific picture that you paint Yeah I try to remember everything it's very stressful I don't want any woman to fish it appears not want to go through that one for that reason I said I would never become pregnant again to the worst I understand was the baby Ok when she was born no she enter in a bit and then her Street apartment for 2 weeks because she has none to kill she had some problem so that made it to the incubator for 2 weeks but sands gulp. It's Ok Now during those 2 weeks where you able to stay in the hospital with her or did you visit her No No I discharged within 2 days and I came to visit her in our daily business 3 to 4 times the big day for the pristine thing but the hospital died. And it's very far from my home and it's near some military areas so sometimes I cannot access because Also my husband is very afraid that he can lose me because sometimes it's their strike the target their own genesis block and the security there not allow us but they refuse because they want to precede my baby so it's terrible for me to get to the hospital and breastfeed my child they must have been a nightmare situation and busy Mobley was a great relief when they finally allowed you to take your baby home yes it's like it's a happy day that the Allow me to get my baby home imagine during my away me and my husband and my baby and I was so happy it happened and strike in another area then I had a temper back to take longer Lord and I was staying on my friend's house till everything become quite I returned back to my home how old is your baby now 19 months and is she well now is she is she healthy Yes she is healthy she said she is healthy Thanks again and I know that you've been working as a doctor and a coordinator with Save the Children before you gave birth did your experience of childbirth change the kind of work that you were doing yes when you go through the experience you know what is the situations as a mother suffering so I know what the meaning of the miscarriage I know what the meaning when the mother's lost the baby I know what they mean when the pregnant woman cannot have any support or become a mistress for situations and she is a. About head life and baby life so I try to do my work to engage and support a lot of the Yemeni women through the program especially if for their maternity a newborn care so I try to do by myself to visit the hospital to check everything to do an assessment but Matthew there are gaps and the need is a huge that the resources is very low so I would try to do my best I understand and I mean one of the things that we should talk about is the infant mortality rate because there must be a very high infant mortality rate given what you've told me have you have you seen some terrible sights as you visited the hospitals. Yes imagines in one hospitals I visit last month and March there are more than 15 newborn died in one month in one hospital and when I ask this is because there is no medicine no medical supply and also for shortage of stuff so imagine in one hospital what about other hospitals and also when they communicate with other governorate this it is they have the numbers of newborn is very high number of miscarriages very high but you are just one person just one small group of people this sounds like an enormous problem yes yes you cannot. There are too many reason for this war but women and children are being the heaviest price they also have been given a day and their need is huge but no one no one I'm sorry. That's Ok just take any time you need just take a moment. Any support we provide any support that all the want to revote we were not treated the baby but if we stop the point this is the most support that we provide to the mothers because if you lose one baby and she have another baby she will have fled the boat but to take their children from hunger and protect their children from disease and protect their children's from war it's all of this having a terrible effect on you I can hear how emotional you are I wonder if you sometimes find it hard to cope with what you're having to deal with to cope with the distress the you're seeing. You know I'm crying now because I visit one of the hospitals a someone with mothers the medical doctor cannot. Help her because she came in in very detail it and she lost her life and his baby because the uterus was ruptured. Looks after you who's taking care of you. My family I get a great support from my family also I am happy that my family is a still life and you must be operating under enormous levels of stress does it help to talk about these things to members of your family are are they the people that you trust with your emotions my mother yes but sometimes you know with you you cannot express everything because your family has become a fate of your life so sometimes you need just to talk in general and you cannot talk what you are suffering for example if I went to an area with a dangerous area and so there is a Cannot took to this event my family they would become afraid and stressed you get me I do understand Yes I absolutely understand and I wonder what sort of conditions your family are living in. You know now I'm responsible for all my family because I helped other the other teachers and school managers and one of them sold there and they didn't have any salaries so now I'm the one who ticket I want all my family is it to the issue that there is not salary for more than 7 months and you're able to support them presumably because you're employed by the charity is that right yes so how many people are relying on you with the children's and others for example to have 3 brothers 88 people and is it difficult or easy to get hold of the essential things that you need for day to day life like food and water yes because water previously we get it through the network but now it would be a basis we both are water and there is no electricity so. It's difficult even for the food it's a high rise image and there is not salary and the food is high price so it's really difficult situations. And what is it like for you to bring up your daughter in these circumstances in these conditions. Matthew it's very difficult because I'm very happy that I have my baby a told it's vicious baby for me but every day I had a terrible tree in. Maybe because especially when I hear that I'm afraid that something would happen to me or to my baby and I pay for my baby and for all children and young men for old women in Yemen for only a many people this world to me because it's the 1st way 1st full city difficult situation Dr Marion mailed to Garnier working to help pregnant women in Yemen. Marry Him story will be our podcast today you can find loads of extraordinary personal stories on our podcast just search online for b.b.c. Outlook podcast and subscribe it's free and you'll get a daily story to entertain or inspire you. Compton a city south of Los Angeles in the USA is probably best known for the rap and hip hop music that's made that but beyond the inner city streets there's something you wouldn't expect stables full of horses i Reporter Laura Hubbard went to find out why these stables exist and by the road here in the City of Compton very much of modern gangster rap is said to have come from but except for the 4 patrol cars at the end of the block it looks like any other residential community in Los Angeles with gas stations convenience stores and sprawling single story house. Just a few blocks away traffic disperses and behind a nondescript stucco house lies. Completely different rural world it's where the contant Junior Posse stables are once you went to the gates the inner city is left behind a horse arena takes up most of the space under an expansive cloud filled sky the rain has washed out the riding in the posses and hold the celebration is underway with young people dressed in writing. Hi My name is Asia and I'm 10 and I'm How long have you been writing since January last year what do you like about it that it's a place where you can write really express yourself when you can it's just very therapeutic and. A lot of things in my life and. Because when you're around horses they bring out the worst of you in the best and the best deal because you they help you express your feelings in a way that you probably couldn't think you don't think that you could but they are very very they like they like a person that you would really need in your life that you don't have but they're there for you. The founder of the Compton Junior Posse is my bar she started the process almost 30 years ago when she moved to Compton I came across this rural area and I fell in love with it I grew up in a rural area and I thought what a wonderful place to raise children so I came over and bought a piece appropriate brought my kids and bought some horses and moved in to be farmers we moved here my son when he was in his 1st year of high school and it's just saved our lives totally because he was coming home from high school and so guy in a different turf just decided to go after it was true it was an older guy the guy was like he was 30 or 40 so we didn't understand it but. Come to find out later the guy had got released from prison in order for him to get back into the gang he had to do his little test so he shot my son. Was he Ok and I had seriously Was he hurt he was he was surgery for 12 hours he almost lost his leg but they were able to save his leg but more than the physical damage of what these kind of things do is the emotional or psychological damage people think of being in the city and experiencing post-traumatic stress the post-traumatic stress is really severe. You know who are just living in fear Yes living in fear. And it was just related to why you started the posse or why did you start Well when we 1st moved here my kids wanted to meet new friends and they would bring friends and so there are a lot of young people who are hungry who were without leave it cold or whatever made it something to do really needed someplace to go where they could feel safe so that's how we started Kids would be coming over here and stay there for hours at a time so that they could feel safe so they would come and help out with the horses and the ranching duties and my kids are telling me if you guys are going to come over and ride you guys got to do the work so they would they would be We were they were just happy to be along and so it was became like an extended family and so everybody was just happy to be long and I realized early on that working with horses was very therapeutic and calming for them so some of them that would come who are really loud physically and verbally learned that they could be just as effective quietly they learn the power of being quiet the posse has grown a great deal sense that in addition to offering riding lessons it now provides tutoring field trips and scholarships for kids who get into college. At today's celebration a young man wears a Fisk University t. Shirt in college on the East Coast now. Exit of year still comes back to calm during the holiday yes the Compton is a pretty rough areas it's very gang ridden it's not the safest place but the place where you come to your posse is located it's like kind of in the middle of where a lot of mess is happening in if you're in the back riding horses it's one of the places that I can feel most safe while in this area or even in my area when kids 1st come to the posse they start by going horses then they learn to ride after that they start competing at horse shows and a sport that is dominated by well so going to the shows was was very different for me because when we would we would go up there and you would see just hundreds and hundreds of horses and the horses were a company with like you know females and being one of the only men around it was awful one of the only African-American men around so it was it was different and I kind of like the attention that I was getting being you know kind of like I would like an eye opener for everybody. Well you go to competition we're competing with people who are really a fluid and so they get to meet people who are fluent and then break down stereotypical images because those people oftentimes think where these black kids go and what do they do and I got to watch one person I was in a close up but after they talk to the kids they get a different take on who we are a little bit here and the same with the kids because oftentimes they've invited us to their homes and they live in these big home mansions and so it does to the kids is a gives them a sense of hope and understanding that they too can accomplish those things and if they apply themselves many of the kids who go through the program come back as mentors and teachers like Nathan just being a man of color in the inner city in Compton as I got older I realized how I am a target and how at this age in this space in this size I am a target in that even today and I'm 21 like here in Compton when I got here this is a safe haven so I'm not worried after I hit these gates but anything outside of here you have to be very conscious in very aware of what you're doing and you know where you are Nathan who works full time taking care of horses now and the blue ribbons he's earned that shows have encouraged him to keep competing I don't want to stop here I want to go through Olympics it's not going to be easy but it's possibly doable you know if you have hope. Once the kids are gone the ranch is quiet and nice she makes the rounds to feed and talk to the horses. Do you think you've you've saved lives of course yes we say last July's. We have a young man named killer who lives right here. He he would always say if it wasn't for the country I'd probably be in the gang but now the horses are my king and so he went to college and he got a certified is a shaft and he works in high end restaurants as a staff is read thousands of kids come to the president. And what. Are you in your life personally. Exciting adventure I look back at what we've done over the years and I can't believe all the things that we have been able to accomplish with the kids it's just amazing to me and the kids really step up to the plate and really do well because then. Speaking to reporters Laura in USA You're listening to Outlook from the b.b.c. World Service. Distribution of the b.b.c. World Service is supported by the financial services firm of Raymond James offering personalized wealth management advice and banking and capital markets expertise more and more at Raymond James dot com And by move to helps businesses big or small and somewhere in between stand out with premium business cards post cards stickers and more this is you buy move more and more at mu dot com. Still to come on Outlook How do you navigate a monsoon in a small fishing boat it's a problem faced by the fishing community in the Indian state of Carola the fish men it's usually men who do fish told me that it is a kind of a do or die situation often it's like we don't really know where we are going to land Cif on not but that's the time when we get so we have to go and fish that's the voice of Mike's Millan Martin more in his solution to the problem after the latest b.b.c. News b.b.c. News with David Alston the European Union's chief negotiator on how Britain leaves the block has been setting out his priorities for the 1st phase of talks Michel Barnier said they consisted of agreeing a methodology for calculating Britain's financial obligations guaranteeing the rights of e.u. Citizens living in the u.k. And the issue of external borders Philippine lawmakers have rejected the appointment of the country's controversial environment secretary 10 months after she took up the position Regino Lopez angered many in the Philippines mining industry when she ordered the closure of more than half the country's exist existing mines and banned open pit mining citing grave environmental concerns the main Syrian opposition delegation has walked out of the latest round of Russian backed cease fire talks in as Tana the capital of Kazakhstan the delegation is reported to have left the talks in protest of continuing Syrian government as strikes on civilians. A convoy of military vehicles of the NATO led mission in Afghanistan has been attacked by an apparent suicide bomber in the capital Kabul at least 8 people have been killed China has issued tighter rules governing online news providers bringing them into line with controls placed on more traditional media outlets starting in June all staff at such outlets must undergo government training and top editors must be approved by the authorities a Russian court has upheld a suspended 5 year prison sentence against a leading opposition activist Alexina Valmy He says the case was designed to prevent him standing in next year's presidential election there have been calls for a renewed debate on assisted dying in South Africa after the renowned author Carl school man took his own life at the age of 77 in a farewell letter Schoolman said the deterioration of his physical and mental capabilities was becoming clear and he was certain he didn't want to get old b.b.c. News. You know with Outlook I'm Matthew Bannister and now we tune into a rather unusual radio station it's based in the Indian state of Carola and it's called Radio monsoon the station broadcast weather forecast during monsoon season to help local fishermen navigate the storms it's the brainchild of Max Millan Martin who was born in Kerala but now works as a researcher at the University of Sussex in England he was inspired to start the station after the tsunami that hit the country in 2004. It was the Boxing Day and I was holidaying here in my ancestral village in southern. Coast 2 places a spot in Asia more than 11000 people are now thought to have been killed in southern Asia after an undersea earthquake sent enormous waves rolling across the Indian Ocean the quake measured 8.9 on the Richter scale so we heard this news. On television and we saw some really disturbing wishes of the tsunami hitting the East Coast pictures from Indian television show The water over well the long which areas of the coast hundreds of fish it. Is for people to see I was working as a humanitarian worker when this tsunami happened they hired me as one of the coordinators. Relief and rehabilitation of folks in southern India. It was just totally devastated nothing stands everything was destroyed in pieces there's a lot of stagnant water and I remember talking to a woman who said she was in there we've seen. Before something like a mile and a walk or so because she will soon see could soon back to sea for you. I met a man who said the Waterson into his religion and he had to swim and see. Children from this with. Several sad stories and people were in a state of shock most of them in any house many of them didn't have coats to change so it was a very very deeply disturbing situation which puts you in direct contact with helpless people and you suddenly realize how. We all are in the face of the force of nature. Later I realized that the whole experience had a very deep impression on me so I told you about this religion where I was holidaying in so that's where my parents grew up and my grandparents grew up then I went to school there for 3 years and some of my schoolmates and a fisherman witnessing the divest ition of the 2004 tsunami made me more aware of the Wonderbra days that traditional fishes face their local fisherman told me about their day to day lives so the lesson I learned was that if you don't really need a big scale disaster to affect the lives and livelihoods of fishes even day to day living day to day fishing can be on of the most dangerous risk prone activities someone can undertake for a living. Once one season is from. June to August so when the monsoon be in the bins get stronger the waves get higher the sea is choppy. The fish are. Men it's usually men who do fish told me that it is a kind of a do or die situation often it's like we don't really know where we are going to land sea or not but that's the time when we get fish so we have to go and fish feed many of them don't have any navigation aid so if it's an overcast day they can see and there have been many instances of people getting stranded because we cannot they cannot see anything people don't they. The knife body or a life jacket or. Water for someone is stranded for 3 days on on a boat. To me behind behind so it's it's hard to sun in that part of the world. Often the Zeevi conditions change with a dynamic so it's very important to have an idea about the height of the waves and the kind of currents that you're going to face when you go to fish the usual weather bulletins don't cover them the with abilities are for land based people so that kind of focus to start a bill before small. A few friends got together we came from different backgrounds there was a journalist there was someone who has an interest in sea safety there is a user interface designer whose job is to be sent communications effectively and we designed focused messages from official forecast in season this friend of mine is a journalist he would record these things every day and then he would cut cities and he would go on or to be live on a motorbike to these fishing harbors and just give the cities to the places like tea shops some private houses where they would play to a cd player in some of the cases with the loudspeaker. Once. Myself there was another look and of course um but the item but you have a little bit just started over. Broadcasting in. The local language of. The. Ones So the fisherman who would go to fish would come and listen to this be full going to fish and they would make some comments about what they would need what they would like to hear and then they would go to fish and come back the rest. We had on the ground was overwhelming the fishes this is amazing it's like we would like to listen to it when it rains that's when we needed so can you come in give us this focus at 3 o'clock in the morning when we go to fish so what we did is we put them on a war over Internet protocol so and give a phone number for fishes to call it in a time and get it so that was something which kind of a vacancy researcher somebody suddenly comes up and tells you that they listen I want this this is something related to my level who does something related to my safety Can you give it to us you know when it is more dangerous when it's going to raid so then you feel that Ok you're contradicting something to society that's an amazing feeling for any citizen it. Now I live in Brighton in the southern coast of England working with the project it's very important personally to kind of allows me to connect with home what I believe is my hope that we don't live there anymore this beautiful preaching we Leyton several other villages like that and interact with fishers who perform one of the most dangerous professions in the world it's b.p. Satisfying it's kind of connects me to my roots. Thanks Bill Martin who started a radio station to help the fishermen of Carola now in 1907 British born Emma Slade was a high flying financial analyst working for a large investment bank in Hong Kong but when she was on a business trip to Jakarta she suffered an attack that would change her life forever when she came into the outlook studio she told me about her lifestyle before the attack at that point I had a very nice range of shoes most of which had very pointy ends and tall heels and I had a nice sharp range of suits and. And I was running from meeting to meeting him presentation to presentation I was looking at Bloomberg screens and news feeds and I was a financial analyst and we were managing a 1000000000 u.s. Dollars worth of investments out of Hong Kong stressful job stressful but exciting because when you're at the cutting edge of new information especially new information about money which tends to be you know this dominant driver within the world is a very interesting place to be sitting and we're making a lot of money yourself I wasn't making an enormous amount of money no but I was fine thank you so much for you yes in today's money it would be 6 figures why don't we get was by something that stands for a pretty comfortably off and yes I definitely had I didn't have to worry about you know could I go out to dinner or buy a jumper I could definitely do both right here. There was an attack can you tell me how this attack happened on you I went to Jakarta for some business meetings and in the hotel room where I was staying there was a knock at the door which I just went to open without thinking and unfortunately there was a man with a gun there which obviously was quite unexpected and organising Yes a quite unexpected and pushed me back with the gun in my chest back into the room and on to the floor it was like anything what did what did he come for no he didn't have very good English and part of the stressful aspect of it was actually understanding why this was happening and he did clearly want to rob me which did occur but then the hotel realised what was going on how did they do that well apparently my screams had been heard in the next door room and the next door room phone reception I mean this all took a while and I have to tell you one minute in that situation feels like a lifetime it was healed treating you in the time or was it just holding your gums . And he was holding me at gun point but he it was very creepy what was going on because he kept walking back and forward in front of me as I was crouched in the corner and fiddling with his belt area we found out later that he had 4 separated knives stuffed in his the top of his trousers but I didn't know that at the time but it was very odd what he was doing so what happened was that I mean everything took quite a bit of time I guess the hotel probably had to chair can eventually there was a phone call in the room which I took and that's when I knew that somebody knew what was going on what did they say to you they said we've heard that there's some screams in your room is everything all right is anybody with you. The problem was that the man was very close to me I didn't know if he could hear or not so actually I thought what should I say she lied Mitt or should I be pretending in order to keep him happy. But in the end when they said is this I'm with you I said yes and they said Ok we're coming but then they took a long time in coming I must return it if you did a really really good and I especially I was very disorientated and I even wondered if they were going to come I have to say because it does take a long time then what happened is there was a knock at the door and then they checked to see if I was there obviously he held me with a gun in my back because I opened the door so they said Is everything fine madam or whatever and I had to say yes then of course they closed the door but then I think after that he realized that we were both hostage actually because I think he realized at that point all people know what's going on well after several hours Emma's captor decided that they should both leave the hotel room when they opened the door the police were waiting outside and I was able to run to safety but the experience affected her in ways that she didn't expect when the police were interviewing me after the event they showed me a picture of my attacker as he was in the hotel room that I had left because the police came in and fired many gun shots etc And he'd been stripped of his clothing and he was slumped against a war with a lot of blood around him now they told me that he was still alive and he did look alive he didn't look dead I have to say but the surprising thing was that I just felt a huge wave of sorrow for him and for me and for the whole situation and that did not take you by surprise yanking me sorry by surprise Yes Very by surprise subject of you to a terrible ordeal very surprised. And I think it was quite hard I didn't I couldn't even speak it out loud because the policemen were very proud of what they'd done obviously they'd got him and all I felt was terrible sadness here was this man now and his future would be I presume it's pretty tough but you know this surely feeling responsibility for him now random stranger who now I don't know where and I didn't feel any responsibility but I think it's very possible to feel a deep sorrow when you see human suffering so that was the 1st instance and that has been a very seminal part of my development since as a human being but as I attempted to return to my life as a high flying financial analyst in Hong Kong and as I found that that became increasingly hard to deal with in the end then I developed something called post-traumatic stress disorder which is an imp in very unpleasant condition because the past and the present are completely inseparable and so mentally you can't work out if you're in the office or you're in that hotel room so life became very difficult to live in and you start to make changes in your life did you start to live in a different way as a result of that or as a result of the treatment you were getting I think both of them were helpful in terms of allowing me to look at my life and I think both of them have been the key elements in terms of me thinking more about what I want to do with my life which you know in that hotel room I didn't think I was going to have I mean I thought that was it but I can focus your attention causes on your priorities and did you look at your cupboard full of house I lived in your yeah I mean Linus and all the rest of it and think maybe that's not everything I did it's not that I didn't like the shoes anymore and although I was very successful in the financial world as such or I don't know that it was the most valuable contribution I could have made to the world so where did your interest in things spiritual and your interest in. In the east come from oh I think I had been with me from very early on actually my grandfather had been in Burma and so in the house that I grew up in there were quite a lot of objects from the Far East including our colliding Buddha statue which from a very early age I just said I want that near me in my bedroom because we should say to our audience that you've painted a picture of yourself in the designer suits and. You're sitting in front of me know your shaven head here wearing the robes of a Buddhist Palm that's correct and you are a Buddhist not. Where did that journey begin Well I did a lot of yoga as part of the healing process which built up my confidence in the world again and also my physical body but it wasn't really until I went to Bhutan in the Himalayas in 2011 that things really started to happen because I met a monk there who was to become in fact my teacher and it was his instruction to me in 2012 he said Now you change your address and I realise that he was saying I think you should become a nun and so it was his idea and of course I did it and he's totally right you say you did it but I mean that's not a straight forward step is it I mean what does it involve What does becoming a Buddhist nun involve What do you take on and what do you give up you must have their mind of a nun and that would mean that you are renouncing acquiring material possessions it would mean that you wish very sincerely to become a kind and wiser person for the benefit of all I mean I'm not the only Buddhist nun in the u.k. By any stretch of the imagination I am the only one ordained in Butare that's obviously been a very unusual and amazing opportunity so I know the country pretty well now I've spent a lot of time there and you sort of a charity that now I've said I'm sorry you're here to help people that is right I want people you're helping them all. As a charity do mainly we help disabled children or children in were I was a Britain who otherwise would struggle to access education and medicine so the charges could opening your heart to be ta'en We just very practical things on the ground and we have one paid charity representative in Baton apart from that everybody else is voluntary so I don't take a salary I still pay all my expenses to go to Britain it's such I'm very very dedicated to ensuring that when I talk about compassion it's not just talk you know it's really an action ever slave She's written a book about her life called set free a life changing journey from banking to Buddhism in Bhutan all the proceeds from it will go to Emma's charity Well now witness and today we go back 70 years to the birth of the legendary photographic agency Magnum Photos a co-operative that was set up after the 2nd World War by some of the most famous photographers of the 20th century Louisa Dougherty reports. That is found as the Magnum included the legendary photographers Robert Kapper Henri Cartier-Bresson David chim Seymour and George Rogers I've been talking to George Rogers widow Jenks who worked the magnum in those early days and in the Bondi who knew them were. Trying to break described Magnum as a community of birds and I did use the group of lunatics bird passionate who suddenly found the word but wanted to go kindred to operate on their own and were willing to take risks and there was more important than having my friends the staff . The photo agency that this bunch of lunatics in the bodies were found it would go on to become the most prestigious photographic agency in the world one which young photographers everywhere aspire and still aspire to be part of a corrupt. Run by photographers for photographers which is produce many of the most iconic images of all time. Magnify tears began in Paris in May 1947 in the aftermath of the 2nd World War very active and dynamic Poppy of the group with Robert Palmer who were there already be in the front and he wore the mood to move war from a book and his longtime friend him who would be active in Paris in the far future and also in his parents to move all that and all the crowd here by film with a modest rig and your friend. Group was joined by Broadwater who was the non-conformists the band for George and Kapil were both with Life magazine and they knew each other before the war and had similar ideas about photography and they became brothers almost jinx Roger was George Rogers wife . They'd both taken photographs. And extraordinary photographs and seen extraordinary traumatic things as well I'm told your husband went into Belsen and I know he spoke about it afterwards about how concerned he was that he was there composing pictures limits to this horror yes exactly do you think that was all part of what made them want this freedom to approach photography in the way that they thought it should be yeah actually it was showing life as it is through their photographs they'd been through hell during World War 2 a lot of their work had been published but they were that happy with how some of the things where you and so they used to get together quite a bit outside of Paris they had a little country place where these to get together and discuss what they should do next it was. To show the pictures that they took without being manipulated changed or trying to prove a point for someone else in a mission began to. Face Robert Kapper and George Rajah had been at the forefront of the fighting during the 2nd World War Kappas pictures of the D.-Day landings would become almost as famous as his iconic image from the Spanish Civil War of a fighter shot on outstretched caught by the camera. Look at a company more pictures we see that he was much more concerned with the suffering of people of both civilians who are those that he was concerned with and the grower that came from the war I think the company not going to really go overboard. These guys like George and. Were used to acting on the order of the beard were worth no editor to tell them what to do they were out on front and they are prepared to do other people's building provide a good income they would get within the rhythm to do what it felt they had to do with it with the question of August you over there with the question of what was going on in some part of the world and so they set up Magna. But George wasn't that was he at the founding meeting I don't forget I think I got to press him was either got it got this cable from cap and say Welcome to the Time Inc stink club so he sent a cable back and he said what stink. That was presumably a reference to Time Life magazine is that right yes or yes because Kappa and George where I would say about the leading photographers with life at that time and then Kappa sent him a letter which I got which explained exactly what he was supposed to be doing as a magnum photographer and do you know why they decided to call it. It was it to do with the Magna. Capice idea and he said this just because it's great and how did Time Life react. I think they were speechless. Magnums 1st office in Paris to see the. Info books and tone that are a song that sang this wonderful it was like a club very small mostly somewhere where photographers could dump their equipment and just relax and go down for a coffee cap a had a little pub next door where he played the pinball machine all the time got rid of his excess energy I think that girls he had a lot of girlfriends and what was happening every woman was in love with Kappa and he knew it I can remember when somebody said Cap is coming so all the girls went back to their offices and put on their best makeup and kept us kind of kept us kept everybody thought the world of him and he spoke languages too in one day for x. And his cap a ling go they called it. Then he knew how to charm people by the time the young Ingle Bundy joined 3 years later Magnum had opened an office in New York many of the staff to talk of his working for Life magazine and others indices were a little jealous of this new upstart I flew there were jealous of the freedom I was trying to buy and on to this advertisement I think it was something for Secretary research slow or something like that the promises were extremely shabby of remember seeing through think this is going to last. Like Katha who was from Hungary and Jim Seymour who was from Poland England was a refugee she'd left Nazi Germany as a teenager and soon Magnum became like a 2nd home it was like a family affair everybody with very affectionate there was never any idea of I'm the boss and drove a secretary everywhere he was pretty cool.