Interesting question. I don’t think I know the answer because to figure out I have to go through the “process” of passing away, but when I pass away I’m unable to know. This is a dilemma.
During my dark time, I thought I had no impact to anyone and if I was to die, no one would notice. It had been a recurring thought during my high school years, and it came up again a few years ago. I don’t want to think too much about the answer to this question because it could potentially lead me back to that dark hole I was in. This is one question that I don’t want to try to find an answer.