it is not aspirational as i view it. doesn t seem to be to me abby. are you afraid the book makes everyone hate you? . no i mean, i don t know if you mentioned everyone by name i changed a lot of names but it is revealing, for sure. it s ruffled a lot of former friends, i m sure. you know look you know the bad boy behavior debauchery is one thing and off your time. m not that concerned about that but potential felonious behavior that banks are doing on business time that s concerning. you write there was actually an off the record meeting held at a hotel in hong kong attended by senior agent syndicate managers from the firms trying to stem the tide of banks undercutting each other on underwriting fees and long overdue. we needed to find a better way.