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It is very striking. do you really think, and of course, were going back sort of three years now, youve had time to reflect on it, do you think you really did go mad for a while? yeah, i think so. and it really made me understand how im sometimes a bit puzzled by grieving people, by these odd surges of anger or odd failure to grasp what, to me, would be an obvious reality. and i realise now that your perception, your cognition, all that stuff goes a bit a bit haywire. the one thing in it that ki...

Of the parish with david, your partner, living in the vicarage with you. that was such an important part of your married life. and now youre not there. youve gone somewhere different and youve left behind so much that linked you to him. yeah. i mean, ifeela bit like a floating voter, i think, after a sort of tribal loyalty to a political party. so, the landscapes different, literally different, the routine is different. but i think i realised quite early on with david was that i, theres a point ...

Prepare for loss, for absence of your closest loved partner? no, i think, i thought you could, actually. and also as a vicar, i spent a lot of my time with people who were going through that. so i knew what it looked like. i know the technicalities, registering a death, the coroners office, all that kind of stuff, probate. but of course, thats from the outside. and when, of course, it happens to you, its completely different. and it is, for me, it was like a depth charge that sort of blew up and...

No, i think, i thought you could, actually. and also as a vicar, i spent a lot of my time with people who were going through that. so i knew what it looked like. i know the technicalities, registering a death, the coroners office, all that kind of stuff, probate. but of course, thats from the outside. and when, of course, it happens to you, its completely different. and it is, for me, it was like a depth charge that sort of blew up and disrupted all the surface, but also stuff that was very, ver...

Of the parish with david, your partner, living in the vicarage with you. that was such an important part of your married life. and now youre not there. youve gone somewhere different and youve left behind so much that linked you to him. yeah. i mean, ifeela bit like a floating voter, i think, after a sort of tribal loyalty to a political party. so, the landscapes different, literally different, the routine is different. but i think i realised quite early on with david was that i, theres a point ...

It is very striking. do you really think, and of course, were going back sort of three years now, youve had time to reflect on it, do you think you really did go mad for a while? yeah, i think so. and it really made me understand how im sometimes a bit puzzled by grieving people, by these odd surges of anger or odd failure to grasp what, to me, would be an obvious reality. and i realise now that your perception, your cognition, all that stuff goes a bit a bit haywire. the one thing in it that ki...

I wanted people to walk alongside people whod been through the same thing. just say, what was it like for you? that was the stuff that was kind of solid. i wonder if you still feel lost in a way, because youve done lots of important things since david died. youve moved, the village you were rooted in as the vicar of the parish with david, your partner, living in the vicarage with you. that was such an important part of your married life. and now youre not there. youve gone somewhere different an...

Difficult to read in a way. why have you done it? well, i thought if im going to do this, im going to do this. so i thought, full, theres never full disclosure, but i thought as much disclosure as i can. i got permission from davids family. i was going to say, because, you know, youre writing about your husband, your life partner, but youre also writing about somebody�*s son, somebody�*s brother. yeah. so i got their permission to do it. and partly it was because... ..i wanted to tell the st...

But thats a trade off, i think. is this a project that has integrity and honesty? is it valuable? well, if you think so, yes, then you do... the other thing is, you know, you bump into people in life. i learnt this with david, actually. weve had a very, you know, you bruise. you knock bits off. its not always sweetness and light. and that, i think, needs to be part of the telling of the story. the anger that we referred to that you felt at times within your loving relationship has other layers t...

So, i was terrified about that, of course, and occasionally would... the other thing is ive tried, you have to be the one who keeps things together, and also i was the vicar. so myjob is to be unflappable, to get people through moments of crisis. and i imagine you would have seen situations like that in other families. you had been in hospital bedside situations, youd been counselling families in the most difficult situations. and yet, i guess, you also felt, "this is me." yeah. and i was powerl...