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>> just welcoming home troops, saying thanks and merry christmas and giving them applause. theyre so humble. you cant get a smile out of them until after you come up and shake their hand. theyre always thankful and respectful. >> some reunions mean a whole lot more than a simple welcome home, like this couple who were deployed to different countries and were reunited with their young son just in time for christmas. >> good christmas present? >> yeah, the best. >> and this couple who are reunited...

So i started being able to disguise it. and just being like, okay, well if i say something like, if she has cool earrings and im sitting there with a bunch of guys in the mall, i get beat up. so it was something you had to suppress and i got very good at bottling it up. >> thats got to be incredibly difficult and painful. >> yes. you grow up with it for so long, and you just get so used to living through that despair. its an anguish you keep holding inside you. i know its a similar story we all ...

Trying to do that, ride around on motorcycles. but a year into it, after being in that disguise, youre like, it just breaks out and i have to run out to victorias secret and buy something and wear it for a couple of days and decompress. its like that. >> i dont think most people can understand what its like to feel like you are in disguise, to feel like you are not in the body you are meant to be in, that youre not the gender youre meant to be. did you feel that way always, constantly? >> it is ...

I want to wear her shoes and its like, i wish i could be her. so every thought i have is not what i would say the quote man would think, but im still stuck in that body for so long. so i started being able to disguise it. and just being like, okay, well if i say something like, if she has cool earrings and im sitting there with a bunch of guys in the mall, i get beat up. so it was something you had to suppress and i got very good at bottling it up. >> thats got to be incredibly difficult and pai...

And when youre looking at the girls and you whistle and youre trying to do that, ride around on motorcycles. but a year into it, after being in that disguise, youre like, it just breaks out and i have to rub out to victorias secret and buy something and wear it for a couple of days and decompress. its like that. >> i dont think most people can understand what its like to feel like you are in disguise, to feel like you are not in the body you are meant to be in, that youre not the gender youre me...

Has cool earrings and im sitting there with a bunch of guys and i get beat up. so it was something you had to suppress and i got very good at bottling it up. >> thats got to be incredibly difficult and painful. >> yes. you grow up with it for so long, and you just get so used to living through that despair. its an anguish you keep holding inside you. i know its a similar story we all have, that you hold on to it and when youre looking at the girls and you whistle and youre trying to do that, rid...

Thats the hard thing to explain. i had to suppress it so far. i did it here at the house. when i was off, out, i had weekends, so on the weekends i was decompress. but there would be six months when we were on deployment and i would stay away from it. >> its got to be so sad to think that for 20 years you have this incredible bond with these people youre fighting with, and you want it to be the closest bond imaginable. and yet you cant really let yourself be yourself. >> its definitely tough. it...

Has cool earrings and im sitting there with a bunch of guys and i get beat up. so it was something you had to suppress and i got very good at bottling it up. >> thats got to be incredibly difficult and painful. >> yes. you grow up with it for so long, and you just get so used to living through that despair. its an anguish you keep holding inside you. i know its a similar story we all have, that you hold on to it and when youre looking at the girls and you whistle and youre trying to do that, rid...

Brothers in arms who you really were. >> no, not at all. it was so deep that i -- i was cured for 20 years maybe. i dont know. thats the hard thing to explain. i had to suppress it so far. i did it here at the house. when i was off, out, i had weekends, so on the weekends i was decompress. but there would be six months when we were on deployment and i would stay away from it. >> its got to be so sad to think that for 20 years you have this incredible bond with these people youre fighting with, a...

I had to suppress it so far. i did it here at the house. when i was off, out on weekends, on the weekends i would decompress, i was away from the stuff but there would be six months on deployment or whatever, i wouldnt do anything. stay away from it. >> even when you stayed away from it, when you werent buying the clothes or wearing the clothes at home, were you thinking about it in the back of your mind? >> it would come up sometimes. just like the regular guys, there are magazines you pick up ...