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>> house does it feel to be here right now? >> i dont know. its strange. i mean we are standing where my mom gave me this life-changing news. do you remember what your mom said to you that day? >> yeah. i remember every second of that moment. she said i told you that daddy was really sick and thats why he could not see you anymore. and, daddy got more sick and he hurt a bunch of people and i looked up and said are those people dead and she said yes. thats when she started crying. >> that was the...

After trauma, that feeling goes into over driver, jen fled with her daughter in california. >> when you came here, you were in hiding. >> we were renting room and sleeping on couches. >> this place may look like paradise marks a difficult chapter in jens life. >> this was where my mom was working. she had to take very low income jobs. i often could not get to a doctor to get my asthma medication and i did not have glasses. >> it was an incredibly difficult time. throughout i kept on building up

>> i believe that if he were released that he would be harmed or he would harm someone else. >> when my father was given up hearing, it spun me out. i was frightened and i felt unsafe. >> to keep the carsons behind bars, jen has connected oen line with each of the victims families to fight their parole, today shes meeting the family of the carsons last victim in person for the first time. >> john, offered a ride to my father and susan. susan stopped him and remepeatl and my father shot him. >> w...

>> jen was blind sighted by the father she thought she knew. it changed who i was and how i thought about myself. >> i remember thinking i have monster dna, that eventually i would hurt someone. maybe i would kill someone. i became frighten. i started sleeping with knives and scissors under my pillow. i went into a severe depression. >> atdepression that drove a little girl to confide in her diary and write her father a letter. >> this letter was, i very much was processing everything that was h...

Stigma. >> children of highly violent prisoners have complex grief, depression, school failure, substance abuse, and you know what? im really open. i am mentally ill. i have a mental illness, everybody. is that scaring you? it shouldnt. >> when we get to a place where we can talk about that like other people talk about their diabetes, then we can move forward because you know what? i am not ashamed of being mentally ill. i didnt put that stigma on me. somebody else put that stigma on me. >> toda...

I pray that i may do the opposite of what you may have done. although caused me pain in the fear that i would grow up to hurt people as you did. i hold on hatred or anger towards you only hurt and sr. row. >> did you giver it to him? >> i dont think jim was in there. >> it was incredibly difficult to deal with 30 years ago and different difficult to deal with tomorrow. jen is open about the struggles in her life. she inherited her fathers mood disorder and takes medication to manage her anxiety ...

And find out what your case all when a truck hit my car,ade. ♪the insurance companyed, wasnt fair. eight million ♪ i dididt t kn whahatmy c caswa, so i called the barnes firm. im rich barnes. its hard for people to k how much their accident case is worth.h barnes. t ouour juryry aorneneys hehelpou children of murderers, they wonder if there is something wrong with them. how could their parent do this. and are they going to end up like their parent? >> jen has spent much of her life holding...

Clark stevens, shooting him three times and burning his body. they claim everyone they kill ld were witches and god told them to do it. jen seen some clips from the press conference over the years but we are about to watch one she never seen before. >> my heart is beating from hearing her voice. >> i need to take a break. >> that freaks me out. >> you literally have not heard his voice since then? >> no. my heart started racing. it made me really overwhelmed. i know that voice. those things hes ...

The fear that i would grow up to hurt people as you did, i hold no hatred or anger towards you, only hurt and sorrow for the lives that were lost. >> did you ever give that to him? >> no. >> you dont think jim is in there anymore? >> no. hes this guy now. >> this was incredibly difficult to deal with 30 years ago, and it will be difficult to deal with tomorrow. but i no longer hide. i no longer keep it a secret. >> today, jen is very open about the struggles in her life. she inherited her father...

Teachers, the school counselor, i mean, we have situations where multiple kids are reporting a problem. and adults are saying the same thing that my mother heard in 1978. we cant do anything until he kills someone. that should not be the case. >> how did you find out that jim had actually killed someone? >> my father had called and said that he was a suspect in, i think, three murders. it did not surprise me. i knew he did it. >> before he killed those people, i felt a pure, unconditional love. ...