kitchen, her life, an unwelcome house guest that simply refused to leave. my son was 4 months old when susie was taken from us. i don t remember him walking. i don t remember those moments i should remember as a mother. meanwhile, the investigation was stuck in the weeds. i was thinking couple months and we re going to have an arrest, and we just didn t have the pieces at the time that we needed. 2008 went the way of all years. ted kept to himself. marty moved, left billings, went to phoenix, got a job. and at home in glendive, susie s brother, val s husband rusty, was having trouble with the rage. susie s death consumed him. when he went to sleep at night, he told me one night that he just wanted to stop feeling.