I took a whole bottle of pills and woke up strangely enough im not sure why. I at that point in my life i just wanted to be over. And think i was 2021 and then. Within the next year i tried again. I was going to. Overdose on pain medication and sleeping medication. And just hope that id fall asleep in my body it would just shut down or something. When i went to the doctor i had been feeling sick and dizzy and not as it did and. They took my urine and they told me that i was pregnant. I was like you know theres a life and there you know maybe her life will be better than mine and i got to make sure that so. She was very special. Sometimes it takes a different kind of action to cause change to calm. And sometimes. A lot. I grew up on military bases my dad was career army when i was a child when we answer the phone we just have to say colonel brooks quarters and because of that i have as i have an understanding of the level of control that the military exercises that perhaps most in civil
[ music ] now at 11 00, baseball is back. And weve never seen a battle of the bay quite like this. This year is special in its own right. The world champions of 2020, covid19 or not. San mateo county could be on the watch list by tomorrow or wednesday, a dire warning for residents. The city of oakland is back after President Trump threatens to send in the feds. The oakland is a mess, we are not going to let this happen in our country. Now, the big bay area showdown played without a single fan in the stands. We will get right to andrea, who is at the coliseum reporting live tonight. Reporter we finally saw some baseball tonight. Giants played tonight. This area would usually be covered with letter, fans say this is the next best thing. You can hear the crack of the bad and the umpire behind the plate. In the stands, not a van or a vendor inside. Now just cut outs fill the seat and it is silent. I used to try to get that mark mcguire home run ball. While fans can be there, there is no sh
The wound penetrates to the very most inner part of ones soul one psyche. I have this folder that i keep i have all my boot camp letters in it for my mom and my sister and. People and. I was just going through some of this stuff and im like whats this you know and i open it up im like oh my god. My suicide letter. Bomb im sorry for the grease that you must feel. Just because im gone physically doesnt mean i will be there spiritually i truly feel that god will take me without question even though i took my own life. Ive had the most broken thoughts of dreams and physical pain to remind me of the her if it acts upon me that happened while a duty a mother brother sister and husband should never live with knowing the horrible acts upon me find peace in knowing that my that the body left behind doesnt consume my soul i am free now and im not afraid. Ready to soar corded and you know. I took a whole bottle of pills and woke up strangely enough im not sure why. I at that point in my life i ju
Ive interviewed limits of the world and rape is a very very traumatizing thing to have happen but ive never seen trauma like ive seen from women who are veterans who have suffered military sexual trauma. I cannot remember how many times a young female marine that had been raped or sexually assaulted had told me that she looked at these guys as your brother or the suspect as your brother its a kin to what happens in a family with incest because you know in the military are one or functioning at our best piece of unit with brothers and sisters one of the band of brothers and sisters i mean we are family when that bond of trust is violated. I. The wound penetrates to the very most inner part. One soul one psyche. I have this folder that i keep i have all my boot camp letters sent from my mom and my sister and. People and. Just going through some of the stuff im like whats this you know nailed it im like oh my god. My suicide letter. Bomb im sorry for the grief that you must feel. Just bec
Specialite alerted their superiors as early as january to a suspected plot to pay bounties to the tally ban to kill troops in afghanistan. This according to officials in the matterment they believe one troop death was a result of the boupties. They go on this say the crucial information that led the spies and commandos to focus on the bounties included the recovery of a large amount of American Cash from a raid on a tell ban outpost that tromented suspicions. Interrogations have captured militants. Played an essential role in making the Intelligence Community confident that the russians offered and paid bounties in 2019. Another official has said. Thats in the New York Times this morning. President trump you have probably heard is denying this bounty report. Heres the headline in usa today. Nobodys been tougher on russia than the trump administration, said the president. He said that in this piece that facing strong criticism from democrats, trump said on twitter that neither he nor th