Rachael told Emmanuel she was very confused when Matt told her he wanted to end their relationship. I was very blindsided, but once that instant reaction went away, I thought about how strong I thought our relationship was. So for him to end things, she said, he must ve been very, very hurt by everything. It was hard because I lost the love of my life but in the process of that I hurt him while doing so. I love him so much and I always will.
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