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Grief and trauma, but also with her son patricks. >> when patrick would ask you what happened to his father, what would you tell him? >> i tried to answer him thinking age appropriate because he was five years old. and i would say, you know, daddy had a little boo boo on his heart and he died. >> kay was still trying to protect her son just as joe had done on that terrible night. >> even when the man was dying, thats what he was doing. he was fighting for his life and trying to protect my mom an...

That night. >> wow. yeah, i have no memory other than sitting up and getting shot. >> that are moment lingers in my mind. >> sure. >> it lingers in my spirit. so there is no saving face in this. it is what it is and its ugly shut and i feel awful about patricks life. i feel awful that i hurt you. its just the betrayal and its an awful thing to do to somebody, brother. i genuinely am sorry and thats the truth. thats what happened that night, brother. >> just remember sitting up and seeing you the...

>> this is what i did. we had a plan. our intention was to take both of your lives and then take your stuff. >> how did you get in the house. >> patrick let us in the house. we knocked on the door and patrick let us in. he went back to the couch and he laid back down. i went into your room and you had woken up. you had the gun in your hand and you looked at me and realized it was me and because im your friend, you put it back down. as soon as you leaned back, you rested yourself back like this a...

Sweet spot. >> you were unconscious. >> it knocked me out. >> you were not expecting the first round. >> yeah. >> in that moment you wouldnt have been any more courageous than to sit up and defend your friends life and defend your life. >> i have no memory. >> you did, brother. you had heart in that situation and want you to know that. you stood up for patrick. you werent there for that moment and as soon as i got to slowing down, when i understood you believed what you were saying, all these ye...

Instead of focusing on you, i dart out and as soon as i see patrick getting up off the couch, i shot him. and he dropped immediately. i hear a gunshot in your room. i see the flash. i walk into your room coming back into it. you are sitting at the edge of your bed and you have the gun and you raise it off and pull the trigger and it doesnt go off. i shot at you three times and hit you twice. you were unconscious on the bet. i put gun on your chest and i was going to pull the trigger again. josh ...

So i went on the road and saw the dead coast to coast and had some pretty amazing experiences. i had a pretty happy, carefree, existence as a hippy. i didnt have support financially from my parents at that time. so i learned to sell marijuana. i thought of it not really as dealing drugs but as a service. it seemed really laid back. i didnt think of having to carry a gun, but eventually i started to because there was just so much money involved. >> and youre, like, how old? >> 19, 18, yeah. >> so...

Space, brother, you know, you know, this is -- this is the heavy lift. what do you want out of this, brother? >> i just want the truth. >> do you want the truth? okay. so do you want to share the way that you perceive it or do you want me to say -- >> ill tell you exactly what happened. i woke up and you were at the foot of my bed. i sat up and you pulled out a pistol and shot me twice. that quick. didnt say a word. nothing. knocked me over on my bed. i bled there for a while. i sat up in bed. h...

>> trust me that it lingers in me. i know what i did. >> i know it does. >> he was a special person. >> he was. >> and to see what kind of person you are today, it just reminds me of the potential of his life that he could have had, too. to know that its not here because of me. >> thank you. give yourself credit. you have done a lot of work. dont beat yourself up with the guilt. let it go. you shouldnt be defined by that act as a 19-year-old kid on drugs. >> my hope is that that guilt that you c...

Support that habit and ended up in federal prison. and i dont blame you entirely, but that was a pivotal moment for sure. i mean, i was a pot dealer before that, and that was part of my crime. you know, i had two marijuana priors, but, god, it sent me in a horrible direction. not only did it impact me and, of course, pat, whos no longer here, our families, your family, joshs family. >> did you carry some guilt over patricks -- >> oh, yeah. yeah. so i dont know if you realize, but pat -- the only...

Driveway and he stops the car. he opens up the door and he comes down the sideway and he clearly has his gun. well, this fires me up, like, you going to get at me with a gun? you know, like this is how were doing this? i jump out of the car and i confront him and, you know, he backs down. but as i get in the car, i tell josh, im like, man, i aint really feeling the way they got at us. that dude needs to get checked. he needs to understand who we are and not to mess with, you know, thats not acce...