don t even think i could. it s shock, complete shock. [sirens] i need medical unit. the longer time goes on without him, it s really hard. that s how it ended. this is how it started. he took a gun and took it to my head. it wasn t until i heard the click that i realized it wasn t loaded. i let him take martial. he had the boys running drills and shoot live ammunition over their heads. what were they turning into, living with him? monsters. he was talking about police officers, if any cop got on my face, i had killam. let s call it what it was, an execution. i think is one of the most dangerous people we ve ever dealt with. the threat of death was very real from him. what i end up leaving, i would ve been in a bag in the ocean. it was deep country, dark, just after two a.m.. as the small town montana deputy cruised home. and of a quiet shift. it was may 2017, outside his car, the air was fresh with a smell of new planting. he was happy,