all of our viewers today? i was thinking about this i grew up in a church. i have a wonderful christian family, but i wasn t fulfilled. i had the voice and hole in my heart. i searched and searched, how can i fill the void? how can i be happy? how can i know god will bless my life, how will i know to heaven? i was 21 years old, november 19th, 1997 i was at a fraternity party in college. i looked around in the room, at a big party, i said i can t do this anymore. i am so sick of this. this is not fulfilling me. i feel like i m in a slimy pit. i couldn t get out. i knew jesus was throwing me a rope. it was cold outside. we were up in the mountains. god, i know i need this prayer. i don t know how to be saved. i sat on the steps. i said jesus, fill this hole in my heart. he did, rachel. so many blessings in my life, because of jesus, because of making that decision. there is a famous message that i