and we had feelings of guilt if i think of them have used out wondering what you did wrong what did you see because it s not easy to accept the science while last waltz. right the next day martin took a lethal mixture of sleeping tablets and painkillers. me about in there i didn t care about point i just didn t want to have these feelings i couldn t bear the pain anymore. but something made me think that i shouldn t do it this can t be the solution whatever the problem is. to me so i went to the toilet and i threw up. i was quite lucid from that point on. and i called the emergency services.
psychotherapy and medication helps martin get over his suicidal feelings now he gets by without any treatment sport and breathing exercises helping to keep the depression under control. he is preparing to go on stage to talk about his experiences he wants to share his coping mechanisms with others though he knows that they might not work with everyone who is affected with bipolar disorder has to attend a forum for exchanging ideas and promoting personal advancement. i m very nervous but i want people to really understand what s burning in me and what i want to bring across the guys i want to encourage people to make the steps that i ve made in life. next year you. get if you walk through what the bottom line of the work but there is still plenty to do.
along with his friend and manager max martin is planning to walk from his home in cologne to his hometowns vala in the netherlands 200 kilometers away the idea is to prepare him physically and mentally for the speech. if you don t want to we talked a lot about different things about martin and about me as well and then we came to a point where we thought that we had to go public and reach a wider audience that people should listen to martin and a framework should be created. and that s not something i want to help with. martin has so many ideas so many emotions. and that means he wants to get things done fast but perhaps i can help find a direction from the movie because. martin is planning to meet people from his past as he walks people who know what he went through. so often isn t talking is one
and the doctor s orders are clear. so. it s an infection of the joint bacteria also it s in the tissue. that s become known for being someone who will follow his own plan but the doctor was adamant that i shouldn t do. its work so he said it was a very bad idea to walk 200 kilometers he said my body needed calm and relaxation. and. brain hines s martin s ex-girlfriend he was planning to meet her on his walk but instead she has come to see him in cologne. she wanted to comfort and encourage him ahead of his speech. she knows what such a setback might do having had 1st hand experience of his depression. i think what was difficult for me was that he wasn t predictable.
unfortunately the ups and downs the car the ups and downs and highs and lows which change so fast. and then i would think. ok he s a gambler and now he s there that was the biggest challenge i that was that i was with. a few days later martin is off to the netherlands by car the cast is gone but he s still not allowed to walk. his parents were on holiday 6 years ago when he called them and told them he was going to end his life. we felt powerless and santita and it was very difficult to understand little because martin also has a lot of humor and a joyful side. yeah i. love you more. for all accounts and i feel it was really difficult for us as parents if i could be