>> first of all, i just want to say i hate that photo with every core of my being. every time i look at that picture, i relive it. and -- do you want me to tell you what led up to? there's a little bit of a story behind that. >> go on, share what you want to share. >> okay. i was at work. i'm the school nurse at nova high school in davey, which is south of here. i got a robocall from my youngest son connor's middle school that they were on a lockdown. i hung up and i went back to work. it didn't bother me that my son's middle school was on a lockdown, it didn't bother me because it's been done before, they've been on lockdown before, and everything was fine. i'm so desensitized to the lockdowns that it don't both i me, and that bothers me now. my friend jody called me, did you hear what was happening? i said, yeah, the middle school's on lockdown, no biggie. no, no, it's the high school, kevin's going there right now with s.w.a.t. then it was serious.