like. you're saying you absolutely remember him using those phrases, meaning sexual terms? >> yeah, you know, it's very difficult in these sorts of situations, but the truth for me, and i think for others, is that there are things in your past that you remember photographically and things adjacent to it you can't remember at all. we talkedearlier. i have a clear picture in my mind with a person with a keg of b beer in their hand slowly pouring it on my pillow, into my mattress. i can't tell you who the other person was with me setting up and returning the furniture to the room. but it's -- sorry. >> if judge kavanaugh in his testimony is implying you have animus toward him because he was closer to another one of your roommates who you had fistfights, fights with, a contentious relationship with, and that has caused you animus and animus toward judge kavanaugh, you say what?