without getting high. because i'd been using ever since. feel, deal and heal, they say all the time. i haven't felt. i haven't dealt, and damn sure haven't healed. >> as the anniversaries of both deaths draw closer, o'reilly requested to see one of the jail's chaplains. sister christine. >> she's really in need. going through a bad time with the particular time of year. >> kind of rough. >> what's been happening? >> this week, the anniversary. three years. three years since the exact anniversary. >> this sunday? i see you're carrying a picture. let me see. >> this is my little man. >> oh! that's maddox? >> yeah. look -- oh, look, he's sleeping. >> he falls asleep in the weirdest places. nice to keep connected with him. >> oh, that's so wonderful.