what has been done is wrong from all that i have been taught and that any reason that i might give will not make it right. but you are the one person that i know that while not condoning this will at least possibly understand why i felt that i had to do this. the murder was complete and the list went on to describe the strange aftermath. after it was all over, i said some prayers for them, all from the hymn book, he wrote, that was the least i could do. i leave myself in the hands of god's justice and mercy. please remember me in your prayers. i am only concerned with making my peace with god and of this i am assured because of christ's dying even for me. the letter is signed simply john. >> list's incredible five-page written confession goes on to detail his private agony and eventually reveals his motives. case closed. it would seem. only one problem. the letter is dated november