and you do things, you say things that just aren't you. i take full responsibility, dwight. i take full responsibility of what i've said and what i've done. all i can do is apologize and deal with this disease. this is an everyday battle that i'm going to have to deal with for the rest of my life. it's the beginning of a long, long journey. and i'm going to battle this disease until the day i die. >> so you're not a racist or homophobic, it was all just alcohol if >> none whatsoever. >> how can you be a leader of this city with those things on your record? >> when you have this disease, you say and do things that aren't you. >> you've apologized before, though, and you said it's over