The Good Men Project Become a Premium Member We have pioneered the largest worldwide conversation about what it means to be a good man in the 21st century. Your support of our work is inspiring and invaluable. Living in Fear My orthorexia journey: How do you explain to someone that the loaf of bread on the table is scary? Author Zig Zigler said it best, “F.E.A.R. has two meanings: Forget Everything and Run, or Face Everything and Rise.” I lived most of my life adhering to only the first meaning, fearing the unknown, the future, and food. I feared history repeating itself. The memories of an overweight childhood and being bullied haunted my mind. The pain of loss lingered over my soul like a thunderstorm. I could not bear the thought of gaining weight again or losing someone else I loved, including myself. So I ran.