and i don't know if you remember i asked him could i go to the bathroom. >> i don't recall that. >> yeah, i don't know -- i don't know if i hung the phone up. >> i think you put it on hold. >> you asked him if you could go to the bathroom? >> i had to go to the bathroom so bad. >> sorry to be laughing but all the things to be in your mind at that time. >> so bad and i was just sitting there literally shaking i had to go to the bathroom so bad. >> wow. >> and -- >> is that the real reason you were shaking? >> i mean, i was just shaking so bad. and he had just went out there to shoot at the police and they were shooting back at him and the bullets was coming from everywhere and i said to him, come back in here right now, come from out there. come back in here. don't worry about it. come back in here and stay with me. we're both going to be safe because i said to him bullets don't have no name and if they shoot you they going to shoot me. come back in here, we going to work this out. so he came back in -- >> that's amazing you were