in the brain. that's another way to look at it, mental illness is a physical illness. >> after the attack, how did you hear about what finally happened to gus? >> well, see gus was in just slash it away. and then suddenly you just turn around, i think he thought i was bleeding enough, i don't know. i staggered through the barn along a ridge, i just -- i didn't have much -- i didn't have much strength in my right side, my arm was disabled. soy didn't open the gate, i climbed it, staggered out to this road, my husband had taken some hunters back to the national forest, and he saw me coming through the field bloody,