and apparently followed his own exploits through newspaper accounts producing a chilling account of a man obsessed by killing. in reference to the primitive bomb left on campus at northwestern university, he wrote, i hoped that a student would pick it up and would blow his hands off or get killed. after his second bomb caused minor injuries, he complained, i had hoped that the victim would be blinded or have his hands blown off or be otherwise maimed. i wish i knew how to get hold of some dynamite. >> as you go through some of the writings that he had written over the years, he makes it very clear that my ambition is to kill a scientist, a businessman. i'd even like to kill a government official or a communist. >> he complained again after the 1982 bomb that injured the secretary at vanderbilt. no indication that she was permanently disabled. frustrating that i can't seem to make a lethal bomb.