i like that feeling of freedom. >> did you want to kill your husband, crystal? >> no. i just wanted him to stop. sometimes i think to myself, when i saw his hand flinch, that had the gun in it, was he just flinching? but i don't regret defending myself, because if i didn't do what i did i would have died that night. >> it's taken crystal 30 years to find peace with her crime. but there are some crimes that make peace impossible. >> hi, sara, how are you? >> all right. nervous, feeling a little nervous a little bit. >> take a deep breath. ♪