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[ siren ] >> then came a high-priority call, burglary in progress. he didn't get out of the car so i would approach the scene by myself. >> he didn't back you up? >> no, he sat in the car. he shined his light and just sat there. i didn't get out. >> . >> what if somebody would have come towards you? >> he would have been happy. because then he could have allowed me to get hurt and that would have been right up his alley. >> morris says she was so scared she didn't even finish her shift that night. but if you areman wasn't the only one with this attitude towards wyoming there was a covert club. they called themselves mau, men against women, meeting here at stoner park in the dead of night. >> so when i first told you about men against women, what was your reaction? >> i couldn't believe it. you guys actually go to the park after work and just drink beer and denigrate women? >> . >> i spent time here when i was writing thinking about what it would be like for the marksau guys to be here. >> he described disciplining one of their zone if you areman and the guys would hold these late night meetings and figure out how they were going to harass other male officers that were being nice to female officers. >> who had helped them in some way? who had not reported something in a report that those officers felt they should have or done something nice for them, had backed them up. . >> coming up tribunal and kill parties. >> it takes your breath away just the thought of it. hi. i'm the one clocking in... when you're clocking out. sensing your every move and automatically adjusting to help you stay effortlessly comfortable. there. i can even warm these to help you fall asleep faster. does your bed do that? oh. i don't actually talk. though i'm smart enough to. i'm the new sleep number 360 smart bed. let's meet at a sleep number store. theseare heading back home.y oil thanks to dawn, rescue workers only trust dawn, because it's tough on grease yet gentle. i am home, i am home, i am home the unpredictability of a flaree may weigh on your mind. thinking about what to avoid, where to go, and how to work around your uc. that's how i thought it had to be. but then i talked to my doctor about humira, and learned humira can help get and keep uc under control... when certain medications haven't worked well enough. humira can lower your ability to fight infections, including tuberculosis. serious, sometimes fatal infections and cancers, including lymphoma, have happened; as have blood, liver, and nervous system problems, serious allergic reactions, and new or worsening heart failure. before treatment, get tested for tb. tell your doctor if you've been to areas where certain fungal infections are common and if you've had tb, hepatitis b, are prone to infections, or have flu-like symptoms or sores. don't start humira if you have an infection. raise your expectations and ask your gastroenterologist if humira may be right for you. with humira, control is possible. 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>> that's what i'm saying, sir. >> as bailey was grilling fuhrman, no one knew about the tapes, except for her and a few close allies. then came the one phone call that changed everything. >> i picked up the phone. he said may i speak with laura hart mckinney and i said this is she but i didn't recognize the voice. and then he said this is pat mckenna. >> mckenna was a private investigator working for o.j. simpson's lawyers. a sign to find anything that would support the defense's strategy that mark fuhrman was a racist who planted evidence. >> he asked me if aid story and if in that story i had research tapes and if i had taped mark fuhrman. >> and your thought? >> i just froze and said yes and then we left town. immediately. because i had no idea what to do. >> including what to do about some unexpected advice. >> who suggested you destroy the tapes? >> judge who was an acquaintance of mine in l.a. >> did that surprise you? >> yes. >> so did she want to protect mark fuhrman? >> i'm thinking she wanted to protect the integrity of the trial. >> what did you say to her? >> i was flummoxed. why? >> did she see the writing on the wall? was she afraid potentially a murderer could walk free because of what these tapes represented? >> she didn't know what was on the tapes but her point was when i said the tapes are confidential and she said it's a murder trial. nothing is confidential and they would subpoena you and your tapes and your life would change forever. >> and that's exactly what happened. when mckinney refused to hand over the tapes, simpson's lawyers came to north carolina and took her to court. >> mark furman is still a friend of yours, is that correct? >> he's a business partner. i have a business relationship with him. >> and you're still trying to market this screenplay? >> i was completely unprepared to be in a courtroom. i was extremely nervous. >> this material is collateral. and i will deny the subpoena. >> i think it's an outrageous ruling and we're going to appeal. this is bombshell evidence and it's absolutely critical. it's relevant, germane, material. >> you won. you didn't have to give up the tapes. >> yes. i was very pleased that we won and thought that's the end of it. great. >> and then you lost on appeal. >> right. >> and then you thought? >> i thought i have to send the tapes. >> so did he say, laura, please don't give up those tapes? >> he requested i not give up the tapes. >> what did you tell him? >> no. that i had to give them up. >> did you feel a need to protect him? >> no. he's very capable of protecting himself. >> as for mckinney, she could no longer protect the tapes or her privacy. so who told pat mckenna you had these tapes? >> that, i don't know. that person has never been revealed to me. >> still a mystery? >> still a mystery. i don't know. >> so to this day you don't know who gave you up, basically to the defense. >> no. i don't know who called. >> did you stop and think about what you should next do? coming up, o.j. simpson charged with murder and mark fuhrman still taping. more from the infamous tapes you've never heard. speak now. 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s. >> i was. >> why didn't you sell them? >> no one, talking about me, should be profiting from this tragedy people have to live with every day of their life. >> but mckinney was still thrust into the spotlight and that meant anxiety and fear. i remember you got a lot of death threats. a lot of people were angry with you. they didn't understand why these tapes had to come about. >> right. >> did you feel safe during all of that? >> no. i was extremely scared. >> in a matter of the people of state of california. >> the verdict didn't make her feel any safer. >> we find the defendant not guilty of the crime of murder. >> what was your reaction to the verdict when o.j. simpson was found not guilty? >> i didn't go out of the house for a while. >> really? >> yes. >> why? >> there was the reality that maybe the tapes had something to do with the jury's verdict and because of that i would be persona non grata in many people's eyes. >> mark fuhrman certainly was exposed as a liar and forced to go silent. >> detective fuhrman, did you plant or manufacture any evidence in this case? >> i assert my fifth amendment privilege. >> but his silence would not protect him. his voice on those tapes could not be erased. excerpts you are now hearing for the very first time. >> you got to be a borderline sociopath, you have to be violent and walk away from blood and go to dinner. you have to be able to shoot people, beat people beyond recognition and go home and hug your little kids. you don't pack those qualities. no women do, and if you do they're either so ugly or they're lesbians or so dyke-ish that they're not women anymore. they're like caught in between it's like half in a door and half out. you know they're caught between dimensions. there's just no way to do it all. >> stories of alleged sexism, racism, and police brutality. mckinney's tapes would impact more than just the o.j. simpson trial. they would impugn the integrity of the lapd. when you heard those tape recordings for the first time, what did you think? >> it was a belly punch at the wrong time. and you go how could this have happened to us? how did we even let him stay on the job? >> he was an lapd assistant chief when a task force investigated everything fuhrman said on those tapes. why had he been allowed to behave the way he did for so long and not be held accountable? >> because the command staff that was in charge of him did not do the job they should have done, which is to deal with the issue in a strong manner. so it was kind of shunted off to the side. boys will be boys and we needed to tell the organization if you even claim to be engaged in this kind of behavior, we'll investigate it and let chips fall where they may. and secondly, if it was within statute, then we would take it to the district attorney and file on it it. >> in 1997 the task force released this report, keeping secret portions of the tapes. excerpts not played in court and never made public until now. this is the confidential version of that report. it reveals more of fuhrman's disturbing recordings. quote, grabbed her by the hair and stuck a gun to her head. held her like this. threw the -- down the stairs. and quote i'd pick up three or four gang members, bring them to the station. take one in the basement and just beat the dog out of him." >> hundreds of inert views were conducted and nearly a quarter of a million documents were reviewed. >> in the end the task force confirmed 12 of 29 events described by fuhrman. but concluded that he embellished a lot, that just about everything he told mckinney was bigger, bloodier and more violent than the actual events. with one exception. m.a.w. men against women. >> did you ever at any point feel i need to report what he's saying? this is dangerous? >> no. no, i didn't. i really believe that if i could tell the story in a way that was honest and fair with a strong narrative that i could help inform people. >> fuhrman's words would inspire mckinney's writing for decades. >> he told you he personally felt trapped. what did he mean by that? >> he was trying to articulate the depth of his soul. there is something with his own identity that was connected to being a police officer and so much of it was being besmirched by having to work with women that if he'd been in a different time in history, he would have been more appreciated, more respected, more openly respected by people. next, fuhrman worries more about the movie than the murder. >> and whatever happened to mckinney's screenplay? 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