nerves and my strength were totally shot. and we weren't living together anymore. so we couldn't support one another. i'm not sure if that was the reason but i just didn't have the strength. both of them withdrew their final applications at the start of the 80s. had a baby and unexpectedly got permission to leave for the west. as a pastor's wife zuko fall was also allowed to go to spin this distance what we've been through an experience but it's there somehow it's all paid off to sea for me and he's playing the fiddle. ok plus my dream as a teenager was to see the world now i fulfilled it. provide. hope for.