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When i tested positive. i knew i wasn't doing anything. >> open your mouth. thank you. >> although the prescription drug often creates problems whenever he's tested, according to bean it has become his lifeline. he says he needs the medication to cope with the anxiety and stress of being incarcerated for the murder of his girlfriend. >> and you know, just when i think i have a grip on it, these wounds are scar tissue that i thought was healed. just opened back up all over again. and you know i'm -- sometimes partially in tears, sometimes i just want to hit the off switch when i don't have one....

That's what i figured it would be from the beginning. when i tested positive. i knew i wasn't doing anything. >> open your mouth. thank you. >> although the prescription drug often creates problems whenever he's tested, according to bean it has become his lifeline. he says he needs the medication to cope with the anxiety and stress of being incarcerated for the murder of his girlfriend. >> and you know, just when i think i have a grip on it, these wounds are scar tissue that i thought was healed. just opened back up all over again. and you know i'm -- sometimes partially in tears, sometimes i ...

Just got to deal with it. >> on the eve of his 30th birthday bean's cell mate dustin trowbridge has spent nearly half of his life in prison for murdering and sexually assaulting a 69-year-old woman. he too attempts to make peace with the past. >> i didn't used to like myself. i had a lot of hatred towards myself for a long time. on the back of my arms it says freak of nature. that one would be lucius which means freak. that's nature. you know, i started seeing things completely different. i started understanding things different too. and i changed. i don't want to say it's because i foungod or...

>> on the eve of his 30th birthday bean's cell mate dustin trowbridge has spent nearly half of his life in prison for murdering and sexually assaulting a 69-year-old woman. he too attempts to make peace with the past. >> i didn't used to like myself. i had a lot of hatred towards myself for a long time. on the back of my arms it says freak of nature. that one would be lucius which means freak. that's nature. you know, i started seeing things completely different. i started understanding things different too. and i changed. i don't want to say it's because i found god or anything like that. tru...

Be from the beginning. when i tested positive. i knew i wasn't doing anything. >> open your mouth. thank you. >> although the prescription drug often creates problems whenever he's tested, according to bean it has become his lifeline. he says he needs the medication to cope with the anxiety and stress of being incarcerated for the murder of his girlfriend. >> and you know, just when i think i have a grip on it, these wounds are scar tissue that i thought was healed. just opened back up all over again. and you know i'm -- sometimes partially in tears, sometimes i just want to hit the off switch...