>> well, i hope that what i fell for was good about him. i don't think i was ever blinded to the aspects of michael's character that are not so attractive or questionable. the ultimate question is did michael jackson ever molest a child? my conclusion is that i don't think he did. my answer is probably not. i wish i could say conclusively, no, he didn't. i can't. there is -- there is a shadow of doubt. and i learned -- i had to come to accept that i was going to have to live with that, and i think anyone who's honest about michael will have to live with it too. >> reporter: i'm nick watt in lo...