Never, ever forget. and then he started pulling me over to this closet. he grabbed my crotch. and at that point i knew his intention to rape me and kill me. and at that point i didn t know what his original crime was. the inmate had been convicted of raping and killing a 71-year-old woman. as far as keeping him from pulling me in that closet, i think it might have been adrenaline. just like i m not going to die today. i was pretty terrified. but i was also kind of at a loss of whether, should i go in there and help or should i not? and at that point somehow either he got distracted from the inmates i saw up there that i reached for my mike and screamed for help. my heart told me to help. but my mind told me to think of the repercussions because i ve got to live here for the next 20 years. some inmates probably would have thought that i was interfering ....