Surreal, and it almost felt like it wasn't true, and even now, i'm only just beginning to have conversations about a memorial, and we're looking at two years since he died. and i'm hoping that it will be everything that couldn't have then, but at the same time it kind of feel slightly shallow because it is so far down the line. so i am really hoping it has the effect of a little bit of closure for me, and a little bit of being able to process and move forward. but there is a massive hole in my life where dad was, and a massive hole in my life where what should have been a celebration of his li...