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Private wake for actor philip seymour hoffman is being held tonight. family and close friends have gathered at a new york funeral home. a private funeral will be held tomorrow. earlier today two of the suspects arrested in connection with the heroin found in hoffman's apartment were released after their bond hearings. juliana luchkew and max rosen blum pled not guilty. and police say vineberg had hoffman's cell phone stored in his cell phone. a fourth man not be prosecuted. the d.a.'s office said there was no evidence he had any control over the drugs. we all know by now philip seymour hoffman...

Inside heroin's powerful pull. >> you're using right now? you're high? >> yes. >> when did you last get high? >> probably half an hour ago. >> reporter: 37-year-old we'll call him john says he's used heroin for more than half his life. clean for seven months last year, his body, his brain, unable to say no to the drug. >> what is it about heroin that flips that switch for you? >> i don't know. i don't know. it's like it's like a feeling of love, like that love that doesn't go away. >> reporter: it's love. >> so that's an abscess from using the vein. >> reporter: needing to be fed by another hi...

You have. >> physical pain versus emotional pain. >> i used to say you can't touch me on heroin. it's as if god is holding me. >> that's what it felt like. >> yeah. as if there's a fire inside of me. so to let go of that fire, it's like you're asking me to do a lot. >> in the book you described a feeling of having like a demon in your spine. >> yeah. >> what is that? >> as we watched on the video, he talks about this obsession, which is heart-breaking for me to see. he can't stop. and for me i felt like there was a demon inside of me. i wanted to stop so bad. i tried so many times, but i could...

Another shortest cape from the inescapable. the need for more drugs. >> what does it feel like when you are denied it? >> oh, so alone. hurting. like just just painful like just hurting. >> reporter: alienated from much of his family, even his ex-wife and two kids, now unemployed. still the difficulty of getting off heroin monumentally harder than simply finding another hit. >> do you consider heroin medicine? >> yeah. yes. or i consider it a dish never thought about how i consider it, but it's something that i'm normal. i'm like normal. >> reporter: his addiction about 30 bucks a day, he says...

Why hasn't it taken me out. >> reporter: miguel marquez, cnn, los angeles. >> this person also knows what it's like to be in heroin's grip. a former member of cirque de soleil. his memoir "acrobatic addict" i don't know why i can't say that. acrobat addict he skrieps his fall from an olympic hopeful to homeless junky. battle to beat addiction which he's done. i've been reading the book. it's a really good read even though i can't pronounce the title correctly. do you relate to what that guy is saying about wanting to stop and not feeling like you can? >> completely. that's one of the reasons w...