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>> house does it feel to be here right now? >> i don't know. it's strange. i mean we are standing where my mom gave me this life-changing news. do you remember what your mom said to you that day? >> yeah. i remember every second of that moment. she said i told you that daddy was really sick and that's why he could not see you anymore. and, daddy got more sick and he hurt a bunch of people and i looked up and said are those people dead and she said yes. that's when she started crying. >> that was the day your life changed forever. >> during the years, jen and her mom were in hiding, jen's fathe...

After trauma, that feeling goes into over driver, jen fled with her daughter in california. >> when you came here, you were in hiding. >> we were renting room and sleeping on couches. >> this place may look like paradise marks a difficult chapter in jen's life. >> this was where my mom was working. she had to take very low income jobs. i often could not get to a doctor to get my asthma medication and i did not have glasses. >> it was an incredibly difficult time. throughout i kept on building up

>> i believe that if he were released that he would be harmed or he would harm someone else. >> when my father was given up hearing, it spun me out. i was frightened and i felt unsafe. >> to keep the carsons behind bars, jen has connected oen line with each of the victims' families to fight their parole, today she's meeting the family of the carsons' last victim in person for the first time. >> john, offered a ride to my father and susan. susan stopped him and remepeatl and my father shot him. >> why do you want to meet the family members of the people who your father killed. >> i am hopeful t...

>> jen was blind sighted by the father she thought she knew. it changed who i was and how i thought about myself. >> i remember thinking i have monster dna, that eventually i would hurt someone. maybe i would kill someone. i became frighten. i started sleeping with knives and scissors under my pillow. i went into a severe depression. >> atdepression that drove a little girl to confide in her diary and write her father a letter. >> this letter was, i very much was processing everything that was happening to me. >> dear jim, i pray that some day you may feel remorse for your sins and murders.

Stigma. >> children of highly violent prisoners have complex grief, depression, school failure, substance abuse, and you know what? i'm really open. i am mentally ill. i have a mental illness, everybody. is that scaring you? it shouldn't. >> when we get to a place where we can talk about that like other people talk about their diabetes, then we can move forward because you know what? i am not ashamed of being mentally ill. i didn't put that stigma on me. somebody else put that stigma on me. >> today's crowd is somewhat unique. while some have gathered out of pure interest, others connect to je...