Was surreal. it s something we try to prepare for. they talk about sensory overload. they just try to throw everything at you to prepare you for dealing with that. what you re seeing, what you re hearing, what you re smelling. and it was all of that and more. it was unspeakable the carnage that we were seeing, the number of people who were injured. and unfortunately already dead. and the pure panic on the face of those individuals that were still in need and needing to be safe. this was tragedy that i d never experienced in my career, and that i don t think most officers do. and so we had to deal with it. and we had to help bring them to safety and try to bring some kind of calm to the chaos that was going on. so, you know, just knowing, though, that yeah, we resolved that situation quickly, but there is so much tragedy that is left behind. ....