Some kind of comfort to know that, know that you are able to move forward, not move on but move forward at least get through each day. you know, i absolutely remember wondering if i was going to survive. that was the level of pain. i never wanted to kill myself, but i literally thought that i was going to dissolve and die, that s the amount of pain i felt. i understand where you are, and i am ten years further along in my journey, at least nine and a half and you do survive, and you do. we re having an issue with the static again. you re having technical can you hear us gloria? ok, we ll get them back i wanted you to talk about that because i think we all feel that way. how do you survive, at what point did that turn around for you and realized i will survive ....