Appeared on the franchise as a contestant on the bachelorette before becoming the bachelor myself for season 23 in 2019 colton has a new book out called the 1st time finding myself and looking for love on reality t. V. Currently Available Online poll number one called thanks for joining us. Now you for having me on i appreciate it. And then we can see your bald spot in a mirror behind you no im kidding i get it i know it said. Listen were all struggling with our hair right now we dont have any we cant get our haircut room im sitting here in my pajamas im not gonna lie to you. Im so theyre my pajamas from the waist listen i hear you. I hear you have the coronavirus know what stage are you do you clear a bit in the middle im here no im actually full recovery so i have the antibodies now i have no more traces of the crown of virus in me other than the good stuff i guess you want to call it but i made a full recovery i have the medication today to be honest with you and a good doctor out here that was on top of it so well tell me tell me but you know listen well im going to get to the book obviously because people everywhere i look the show is everything with people shut in they love stuff like this they convince jon of yeah but lets talk about just the illness for a 2nd because youre like the canary in the coal mine when youve been there what did you 1st notice how long before tell me about getting out of it break it down for us called yeah. So men to be honest with you i started becoming symptomatic and i thought i just had the flu my body aches fever night sweats and i just assumed it was the flu i didnt it was so early on then i was like theres no way statistically speaking i think at the time there was like 30 cases in california 40 cases tested and i didnt think i had it. And one night i just woke up in the bed was completely wet i could barely catch my breath i panicked ordered oxygen boost those little cans off of amazon right 4 am because i was gasping for air. So i think in that moment i realized hey i need to probably take a test and see what i have so i can treat it and i called kathy called 2 doctors on my behalf and i got denied by both of them and then her mom stumbled upon a doctor in Orange County here that had tests and i drove down and took the test and 2 days later realize i tested positive. You know what its so theres a theres an interim weavings thing here where youre freaked out that you might have but theyre talking about how it affects your breathing hyperventilation happens when you get these things start to dovetail and the next thing you know youre trying to think and i have a trouble catching my breath because i have this dream i worried about it most of it scared the living hell out of you yeah that now is something i always kept in the back of my mind too i was like i am i just anxious and maybe maybe the symptoms are like phantom and im just thinking i have it it might be in my head but then i walk to the bathroom and i have to sit down to pee because i was so winded i think thats when i was like ok this isnt something to play around with. The other scariest part i think was just the unknown and the mixed messaging going on in the news and in the media is the reason why i spoke out publicly about it because at the time there was still spring breakers in florida on the beach my age and there was kids that were saying i dont care if i did its not going to affect me im sitting here barely being able to talk to my phone without catching my breath tell me about when when do you start coming out and whats it feel like you come out as abruptly as you go in or no it is a lack. Of is about a 4 or 5 day lag after the medicines take completely back to health cassy in our parents and our whole family did an amazing job a i so i felt isolated on their 3rd bedroom floor and they would bring up food and water with gloves and masks on and drop it off and leave and i was up there for god and god knows how long probably way too long by myself but they stayed healthy they all tested negative. So its you know its a good thing that they did what they did to stay healthy what a long strange trip when you think about a cult that you would go on and its kind of a strange thing youre obviously a good looking guy youre bright you could be with him but you go out to t. V. Show im sure at the beginning its kind of a lark and then it turns out you did as well then but where did you end up with her with her parents and theyre bringing stuff up to the title or like your question moto its just an unbelievably strange trip those of you know i know and the craziest part about it is we sort of been through something similar because theres a 4 month lag between the show and when we filmed it so for 4 months i keep my i keep my relationship secret and i dont let the public know that im with kathy so ive been in this position before where im like running around the house hiding and trying to like just stay locked down here and i cant go out for a walk i cant do anything so i sort of been through it on a minor scale before so we were prepared for it a little bit. You know what they must literally scare the living hell out of you guys with the nondisclosure form because im always thinking what in gods name can they say to these people up front that would scare them to the point that they would literally go for months living this clandestine existence the lawyers just do with every possible contingency up front you know they talk to us about it for sure but i think theres also for me i dont know i had fun filming the t. V. Show i had i had fun looking at the ratings i had fun engaging the people who are in it for the entertainment i wanted to make my show really good you know i wanted the bastard to do really well so theres a part of me that want to like hide out and try to throw people off and you know sort of play the game. Play along just to wrap on your corn to negate youre not able to execute is where youre reading watching t. V. What were you doing well when i was at my when i was really really sick i was sleeping obviously 1516 hours a day to recover but for the most part i was Binge Watching t. V. Shows. But also like doing i mean sure i was catching up you know i made a lot of phone calls to a lot of people who i might not have talked to in the past just because i was busy so i got i got them to catch up with old friends and family. Well lets talk about the show and lets talk about the book and once again the book is the 1st time in the show is the bachelor i talk to chris he seems like a i like him harris is his name harris and he seems like it could super close guy this thing is such of you know im an honest to god my son watches and now as a girl and years ago we used to watch it just how because wed always try to do the beats of it it wasnt a drinking game its obviously my sound but wed say hes about to say journeys about she spots a journey well have all these games with it but its how long is a been on the its like survivor forgot 6 its been on so long right yeah i mean i was season 23. Just to put things in perspective and i think thats where it comes to 15 or 16 now in paradise i mean its a year round thing a. B. C. Basically is a bachelor show now are the bachelor networks because they have off work and they have a new thing in show come out i think next week and theyve done a great job with the franchise theyre just expanding and really laying it all out before we get to the book and the book is the 1st time how does it come about like i guess they put ads up on the show and you call it when you go in for interviews im just trying to figure out how do you go from being a watcher of the bachelor to the bachelor. I mean lock i guess fate whatever you want to call it from a movie interview and walking down 63 mall in denver and they had an open casting call at a Hard Rock Cafe and i popped in and talked to some people and i was at a point my life where i had no clue what was going on what was next i was done playing football so why not you know lets look try it look there at lets have some fun. Well tell your brothers that were from denver i dont know your bag group i grew up denver noir but i grew up in illinois but i live the last 56 years before you know the whole show out in Colorado Tell me about your football journey im obviously fascinated about that yeah so for me i played football for 17 years grew up high school went to Illinois State university played my freshman sophomore engineer there took pride in my role on the teams and had 2 outstanding allamerican teams and i dont i stay in one draft in 2014 to the chargers and then i got cut 3 different times to 3 different teams between the eagles and the raiders and i was just spinning my tires and i was realizing hey this isnt going to be a 1012 year career so i need to figure out whats next for me you know i was practice squad all 3 seasons and i took pride in it had a lot of had a lot of fun with my teammates but i just wasnt filling me any more you know just in that role while you know it was a necessary role for a team to have i just didnt find pride any more so when i got my final injury i decided it was time to sir pack up and not return boy you know when i watch the 247 show each year you think boy they make good not only is it a brutal sport physically obviously but i cant believe how little fun some some of the coaches was it at some point youve got to come in there like gruden and have the knock knock thing or a few things there you can have a light moment or it just turns into the boot camp yeah god sakes yeah i think john green obviously does a great job. I enjoyed my time through it but the Chargers Organization and stuff too but i was a little crazy. All right folks were going to talk to colton more after the break dig down on this book a little and the well like i said a genial chap right after this more call underwood on Dennis Miller plus my. Book. The world is driven by dreamers shaped about one percent of those great. Snow dares thinks. We dare to ask. Has changed american lives but pharmaceutical companies have a miraculous solution. Based drugs its not the people who are chronic pain and believe that their opioid prescription is working for them on the remedy be safe to do. Price that they pay closer dependancy an addiction to opiates the long term use that really isnt scientifically justified and ill study actually suggested that the long term effects might not just be absence of benefit but actually that they might be causing long term. Is youll be via reflection of reality. In a world transformed. What will make you feel safe. High salacious full community. Are you going the right way or are you being led so. Direct. What is true watch is fake. In the wild corrupted you need to descend. To join us in the death. Or inmate in the shallowness. Hey folks welcome back to Dennis Miller plus one colton tell us about the book give us the overview my friend. Yes i decided to dive in and write a book just to get control back or feel like i had control back in my life and tell my story there so therapeutic so emotional to write. A book that covers a lot of different variety of topics from. Being bullied my high school in grade school. You know sort of experience and then through college and beyond through my parents divorce working through that working through my identity where i fit in what i liked and then dive into a little bit of that f. L. And then the bachelor experience and all my relationships whether its with god my parents my girlfriend i laid off there. Well ill tell you what brother you know what you just just described his life you know i had my ass kicked daily great school you know. Its just it is a long strange trip was jerry garcia said are you a happy man youve been happy through all this because you know obviously people downturns in their life up turns well whats been your general demeanor over your life. Oh i would say confused frustrated and now im happy im very happy these last 2 years for may have been so good just in self discovery and you know really coming into my own skin i think having a little more confidence and being ok with just being named being different i dealt with a lot of insecurity as a lot of struggles growing up just confused in trying to fit into. Maybe a culture that i didnt really fit into but i lied and those lies compounded and then it became frustrating for me and i became depressed and anxious so i can say now im very happy but ive definitely definitely been through ups and downs well whats the Pivotal Moment you know you mentioned god i saw when you were taking off what jeff dealings are what you pivoted on god or what did you pivot on yeah well so that i contribute that quite a bit to it i grew up and i i went to Catholic Grade School grew up in the church in a very conservative a faith based family and then my when my parents separated i sort of went their rough patch right stepped away from the church and sort of questioned you know why things were happening the way they were happening and i tell a story where when i was with the raiders i was going to write injured my shoulder and i was really lost at the time and car reached out to me and said hey we have bible study if you want to cut your hot tub time little short come on come swim by and hang out and i did that and it really changed my perspective really changed my relationship with god and all the best ways and i from there on i had to lean on him half faced and that definitely helped in my road to sort of recovery of finding myself. Well good for derek and he seems like a good guy when i watched him on the shell its funny quarterbacks in the league have to put on that that they smile when theres a glint coming off their teeth they have to be superheroes but then you have all the pressure coming down on you his brother got a hit every time he dropped back they that he was a Great Quarterback get the hell kicked out of him im sure derek saw that its nice to know hes grounded in that good cat great did great dude and there is that that was a so cool about the locker room or at least part of my football experience was just meeting all different sorts of people from all walks of earth and its great it was a fun time. All right well tell me about cassie now i do like i said i i know the show like a anybody living in the United States those the show to a large degree that you must go on and think ok ill do the show and have fun with this and that. Must be a weird moment when you start falling in love youre i think yeah ill always go back to franchise works in the show works i really i really do believe in that and when you take the distractions away when youre filming you know under someone you dont talk to your family members you dont touch your friends you literally have 2 and a half 3 months just to focus on that relationship so for sure works in that aspect and for me i always knew like going on i was going to have a fun time fun experience and how like home love and yeah i would tell people we understand or make an m. P. V. Show but that doesnt take away from the fact that you can find love and you can build a relationship and i can actually be real too. So im very very fortunate to be in a loving relationship with her and very very lucky that shes shes great and she normal so thats the best part about it all is i didnt you know you never know rather than going to find. Normal is a good box to check. Because its some foot youre making the long run fireworks dont have to go up every 3 seconds you need somebody to get in the bunker go ok i trust sounds like get out this person right right. Tell me but. I think youve gone through all permutations of the vets and whats the 1st one you go on the bachelorettes youre one of the guys who is the gal and their deposit back to you and her get along and all. Yes so season 14 i was back in season and yeah i think i left after that one realizing i had a lot of love for her to the great person i mean you spend that much time as much time that you spend that type of time with somebody youre naturally going to fall in love or fall fall to appreciate love for them thats what happened with her and then i went to fashion paradise which is their summer show back and that was my personal hell i was not thats your morning edition. Thats the one yeah thats the one that not built for me. And thats that and then and then i had that shot to just sort of call the shots and in the bachelor and. I came out happy and made the most show. Whats the worst part of the show called i think its a good read for you seem like a good cat you fall in love i like the fact youre proud of it and think that its as good an incubus place for love as anything is when you think about all the p. F. Over the world they have to meet somewhere at some time there yes whats the downside of some of the guys lunkheads or whats the deal. I mean of course i think actually thats the cool part about it is you get once again its like the melting pot of what and and if the locker room is going to be you get guys from all over the areas of different types of personalities that part fine. I think as far as a negative. I mean. I dont know i mean obviously if its a fine line between t. V. And entertainment history making a t. V. Show and then realizing its your life so that part sometimes can be challenging and where you draw the line. But you know there are so many positives to come out of it as well you know i grew as a person more than i ever thought i was going to as athletes were taught to have a hard shell exterior not let anybody enter not let people know that theyre getting to you and the bass are the exact opposite of what all your while down show everybody who you are and deal with it and thats what was sort of cool for me to go through you know what could i use this term loosely when i 1st got famous and like i said i used loosely i got all screwed up in my head because i used to go out and then theres the human party to just say so my god i was never go to by anybody have they had notice and then id feel guilty about. What a shallow person you are that that matters to you and then id have the other place id say well what im just do you were being let me enjoy it a little and i had so many discussions in my head i spent half my daily fighting that fight to what felt right a job Something Like that. I mean there is always a part of me that of course in their twentys like to him this is cool like i could go anywhere i can do anything thats only fun opportunities coming my way of course there was that but i i have to thank my family and my friends for humbling me every single day and that same kathy to her friends and her family as well keeps you grounded and you need that because it could be a world that you can get lost in very very you know a medley flaked game theyre called there are shocked says just give me a click pop questions get just to get it seems like people have seen just so long they probably know most things about you but im going to fire back quickly q. And a at your family your click gets a somebody who inspires you call this a personal insult my College Football coach coach and i went. Lets call it Eastern Illinois i didnt like that and i stayed illinois were liable to be there now and i have to Tony Romo Jimmy i play to get you make problem college it was funny when i 1st saw romo i went to the dallas cowboy camp that i was standing talking to jerry jones and he said and romo was like standing next to us and he seemed so cool and selfpossessed for a young guy who knows what youre looking for in a quarterback its all you know theres accuracy obviously is the big thing but at some point you got it even as a young kid he also is so involved and so our selfinvolved wrong so where im selfish its a guilty pleasure call whats your guilty pleasure. Peanut butter i love Peanut Butter yeah crunchy or smooth my friend crunchy its more of a smack. Something we should all be paying more attention to what do you think the culture is missing. Patience and kindness right now yeah id say well listen we might find that on the other side of this i dont know right now everybody still seems cranky but im telling you if we hit the mattresses for a few months like this and come out and were still given each other the finger in traffic we have missed the entire point of this time no 100 percent i think theres a lot of laughter got a lot of Silver Lining if you can take from it yeah stranded on a Deserted Island what 3 things do you want to bring with you. A friend food and water there you go a pragmatist something thats still on your bucket list youve got a place you want to visit or something you want to do but when your bucket list them out these would be great to visit ive never been there but ive seen pictures and i want to get there at some point. Listen youve got to google theres a story out right now i forget where i read it but this will make you so jealous because it could be you and your ear lady cassie theres a couple that was in the mall deaves in one of those on still beautiful joints that we all look at and think that must be amazing to be in yeah those above a lot or they got stuck there during the korean team its just them and read that in the mel deeds every day and the the hotels giving them a deal they still have to pay something every day but its just in his way if theyre bringing him food or snorkeling it sounds like a dream gig for you i was going to say that would be perfect to be corned in i dont know who get older not that yeah thats what the guys said you have to read the article he said listen i dont want to sound like a whiner but im telling you this after a few weeks to start it started to lay out hill. What show youve been on right now when you should talk to him what he like. So i finished the 100 on netflix i was a great series from the c. W. Thought highly just that and i just started the arc with jason bateman. Couple more real quick somebody from history youd like to take to lunch. I would say probably just like a great great great great grandpa and just see what life was like and talk them out one of my old family members you know be weird if you sat down and you were brussels sprouts and he said i hate brussels sprouts yeah i know now. And lastly cult underwood your idea of a perfect day brother tell me what you do on your green day i think it would be honestly at this point we just be going for a walk outside and taking in nature and traveling i think right now especially especially house but think in perspective. If some things we take for granted time i would cherish some little moments cherish Little Things and be there for strangers and other people will listen im sorry we had a bit of an overlap here with that electronic thing but you seem like a good cat every time i meet somebody from this bachelor thing and im not trying to be sucked but they all seem like nice people harrisons good guy thank you seem like a good kid i wish you the best brother i thank you so much i appreciate it thanks for having me on all right don take care whole nother would and thats the idler plus one. Coby 19 pandemic not only sees much of the world in lockdown but it is also devastated economies pandemic has been painful recovery from it maybe even more painful is it all. Got 20 or 30000000 people unemployed now the question is why have they. Why dont they have a say and thats a very important question that we need to. This is a story about what happens auster a stray bullet kills a young girl in the streets. What happens to her family and daughters in florida another mother daughter is buried in a cemetery it really messes with your head what happens to the community the public was screaming for a scapegoat the Police Needed a scapegoat so why not choose a 19 year old black kid with a criminal record who better to pin this on than him and what happens in court be the. Shock shock as far as i feel that we dont know shell just screw up on. The end of this trial unfortunately you. Will still not know what childress. Is your media a reflection of reality. In a world transformed. What will make you feel safe. Isolation community. Are you going the right way or are you being led so. Direct. What is true what is faith. In the world corrupted you need to descend. To join us in the depths. Or a maybe in the shallowness. Greetings and sal you take shit you know i opened up the Merriam Webster dictionary today and found some of the many definitions of liberty they are the power to do as one pleases or the power of choice 11 definition that has been tossed around in political circles and rallies for the definition of liberty a lot these days is that liberty is the freedom from arbitrary or despotic control and it was apparently this particular definition that led hundreds upon hundreds upon hundreds of us citizens across the country from michigan and minnesota down to texas and up to colorado to throw down their face masks and rubber gloves and take to their streets their capitol buildings and their governors residences in protest of the social distancing policies and stay at home borders that have affectively closed businesses both large and small across the come