between wanting to maintain that punk authenticity but also wanting to be popular. ♪ rape me ♪ >> the starmaking machine had sucked nirvana up into its evil guts, and now they had to deal with it. >> we decided to lay low and obviously that was -- you know, someone would say, oh, that's because kurt's on heroin the whole time. it was just like -- it's been really damaging to us. tell you the truth. it's really affected my personal life a lot. >> i was in the front row of the "unplugged" performance, and it was a serious artistic statement. kurt didn't play the hits. those songs were chosen for a particular reason. ♪ my girl, my girl ♪ ♪ don't lie to me ♪ ♪ tell me where did you sleep last night ♪ >> i remember watching him play a cover of a leadbelly song,