rain, that relief from pain when she lost a decade of her life. it s relentless nature in her arms, legs and next, captured in her diary. it became a little bit to make make much to keep writing this down because every dayjust seemed the same. she down because every day ust seemed the same.i down because every day ust seemed the same. she also knows the fear of seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling she seemed the same. she also knows the fear of feeling she was - the fear of feeling she was dependent on prescription and painkilling drugs. in her case, morphine. painkilling drugs. in her case, morphine- morphine. it s like my subconscious - morphine. it s like my subconscious was i morphine. it s like my - subconscious was screaming. morphine. it s like my subconscious was screaming. you are gonna die. you are literally gonna die if you don t do something. i didn t know that i was slowly overdosing. like, it s