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End in order to function in combat and you know this a rational response would be to get the hell there but we cannot be rational so we have to set aside our rational human response and then having cut all those feelings all off you know your sense to it because if you dont you just start screaming that one day and the middle of it and you wont stop i went out to a track in 2009 and we got bombed every thursday they went lop off rock allow rock rock around some more rounds whatever happened one night one of those rounds hit 34. 00 guys and. I think one of them survived i really remember because kind of burnt my memory with math and everything turned forget about it but. We lost 33 guys 3 m. P. s. He talked about numbness and i got back i had no fear period and i was afraid of anything i want to do that in the middle of the night and i care trying to get some weed to you know to calm me down and held it none of this equate with with the use using and with. Not having a whole that dime a big boy. I couldve made it well if i use the unemployment because i got employment for 2 years i would use it right instead of using it to suicide my my fears my you know my my feelings very much. I could have went somewhere but i didnt i just explained it that ive been here almost 90 days now the 23rd of this month the 19th what ill be asking for an extension because i can i cant trust myself to go out there i go for the holidays i need to go through that go through the holiday here in the r. C. And. I just thank god for each one of my bets with regards to whether youre an army Navy Coast Guard theyre not marines that ask you up look right here. When i actually came here and i mean yeah that person scary situation and the diversity here is you know we have straight we have gay we have transgender and im actually a gay veteran and also came out with. My hiv status im a chubby positive and. You know the day acceptance from the group was very much overwhelming and. They opened up arms and you know they offered words of encouragement that was actually remarkable. And we become so rich that we could gain any. Career care or love. In their day that is. That is true. You know every veteran out there is one of my brothers and sisters. I want to be there for him you know its all my my my vets all the time said look you know im im not a social worker by nature. A room. It sounds harsh but by and large i dont really care about the average person out there. But i do this because i love my vets on. The. Planet. Earth. Oh wait youre. The program is designed its a 30 bed Transitional Program for homeless vets and so yes they all had to been homeless and all that friends like you are going their goal is self sufficient income so we help them apply for benefits we help them go back to school or get employment. Morning or you. Interventions difference to their needs are different and so were able to treat them to the root issues whether its addiction whether its mental health. Or youre either. Going to have red. Meat. So little that you think may be hung over. To them or you. Used to fire through and worm farm are the reason i would get sleep in. Sydney i really just want to be from. The world of life for the marines. Just as an excuse is. So were learning how to just. So we can maybe a relationship with your. Children its worth. Thats simpler it doesnt turn destructive. Like that morning to you and every morning. Sorry are you without it your guy right now when he 1st came in here he was. I thought he needed medication bag because you get out he would if he was having a real bad time and counselor was in session with somebody so i can get the cows are out of the office i thought roger was going to get in his truck and leave. That you know yeah yeah well you know believe or not i did and it went to 2 weeks of 2 and 2 weeks and he was calm down it was amazing it was. Not going to swab the floor the navy guys would be good to get. Their call swamis. So one thing i like to highlight not particularly with the new veterans coming into these programs is that it is a program so you dont run shelters you know this isnt a mission. Its a mans Supportive Housing program. Everybody takes turns doing chores and somebody has been living on the street for 15 years cleaning the kitchen might be totally alien experience for them but its something that they all have to do you know get their own part to teach that. I dont i dont know how to say it but theres just i love this place you know how i wish everybody could experience this. This is my car and my wife lived in this car. Its not a good place to live but i guess it beats the street you know let me show you where i was living. It was basically. Sit like this and put the seat. Where is it right here all the way back and this is this is the position we slept in you know id have sleeping bag pulled up over me and my pillow behind my head but as you could see im not burkle or horizontal. So i wasnt i mean you try to turn over and you just get more uncomfortable and thats why they all called him and you know you drink enough you just pass them out a way to do that and you wake up in the morning so or you know and you do you start your day all over again doing the same thing trinket so you wouldnt have to feel anything when you when you try had to crawl back in this thing and sleep in it the end i think happened in the mcdonalds parking lot and i stopped getting i try to use more drugs and they just wouldnt work and its like lex something outside of myself said thats enough now its a Veterans Resource Center and things have just been going good sense and you know i completed i did everything i needed to do. To do the right thing you know to get help. And now this car is just a reminder of what im done with. Today like this so good. Im going to hang on to what i get. A leg and go. To dinner pretty much youre going to. Let me go to school is the big focus will. Be there well be there when. But when its so tough for. Me to get big fish ill. Just. Have you seen circumstances where you can say ive seen circumstances in which the client didnt want to be saved. Somebody will decide. Her winner or ill call was much more important at that moment and then we just hope that we left enough of an impression that at some point theyll be ready for hope in the comeback we can. Never turn our back on a veteran and were not going to do it today hopefully someday theyll all come back. I hope its time i am a veteran of 2 branches i did 6 years active duty in the me is a separate mission from there i went into the naval reserves. Completed i went into the Army National guard which i am still hurt currently serving and. At a total of 14 years now for the car they work and play with just sticks i have periods i swear i have a Substance Abuse problem that i have about all that and get over it which was hard but ive done it now and again and this last time was a lot harder but at least i was able to. Bounce back from it all. And since then we have been trying to find income to help to move forward and. Read and here we have the crossed over to it a creek area. To give you a heads up. Your whole day as encompassed with doing nothing but surviving that for people to go around to look for housing or to look for jobs it becomes much harder because youre more focused on where am i going to get my next meal. Or how am i going to get to these Free Services or how my going to these 3rd beings. And then to think about where is our next hour. Hi jean you look coalesce and your clothes are all dirty and stuff like that you cant better even if you want to change. A lot of great stuff that make a difference are you going to. Carry a little platform where i stay. With my boyfriend and couple other neighbors said ok. Visit our tank that group is a profit back and i think theres also a very ventilation to. Good ventilation and then theres them our friend vicki is well theyre cranking in that they stare down here with us but thats generally where i say wrath of a freeway in the woods so welcome to woods. Kidnappings and murders in crimea since russias full stomach station of the black sea in encino. I dont understand why he was killed now. Schools of crimean totilas have been arrested tortured and killed most believe by Russian Security forces. Crimea russias dirty secret. On aljazeera. Villages news as it breaks local communities here important are very frustrated because the lack of post Storm Services with detailed coverage this month not in the bag no people would talk to and say this struggling to make ends meet and just wants a better life from around the world and obviously has been offered to those who rebel against the government open except those involved in human rights abuses a war crimes. Goes on a roller coaster journey in the wrong undiscovered conflict can empower the Refugee Community itself to lead and identity. Id like to prove to the world. I would be able to prove myself to my columns from friends and myself. To use like chalk afghan units on aljazeera. Had i missed with the headlines on aljazeera one person has been killed and 10 others injured in sudans capital after Security Forces opened fire on protesters theyve been camped outside the military headquarters for weeks demanding a civilian government. Forces loyal to libyas u. N. Recognized government say theyve pushed toward a cliff i have to fight is south of the capital at least 3 fighters were killed in the operation after launched an offensive to capture tripoli in april the u. N. Says tens of thousands of civilians have fled the fighting. Our humanitarian colleagues tell us that the number of people who have fled their homes due to the fighting in libyas capital tripoli surpassed 90000 according to the u. N. Migration agency this week alone saw 8000 people half of them believed to be children displaced aid workers continue to provide assistance to the internally displaced and other Vulnerable People impacted by the ongoing hostilities with more than 47000. 00 people in tripoli and surrounding areas having received help to date mexicos president has hinted that his country could tighten migration controls to diffuse u. S. President Donald Trumps threat to impose tariffs on mexican goods trump says he will apply tariffs to all mexican products on june 10th if it doesnt stop migrants crossing the Us Mexico Border a canadian government inquiry into missing all murdered Indigenous Women has described them as victims of a genocide the investigation looked into more than 1000 deaths or disappearances since the 1980 s. Its uncovered a disproportionate level of violence faced by Indigenous Women and says deep rooted colonialism and state in action are to blame a state funeral has been held in the democratic republic of congo for veteran Opposition LeaderEtienne Tshisekedi he died in belgium 2 years ago but political turmoil had prevented the return of his body his son felix won the presidency after elections last year and liverpool have been crowned kings of european football for the 6th time in their history after beating Tottenham Hotspur in the Champions League final tottenham conceded a penalty after just 20 seconds to put liverpool one nil up at the final in madrid but it was belgium to develop already who sealed victory for the reds with a late goal final score tottenham nil liverpool 2 well those are the headlines and now its back to shelter after which theyll be more news. The platform where i stand. With my boyfriend my couple other neighbors so to say. This is our tank that broke as a profit. And when they i know about that being homeless man situation i remember 2 days ago. When the robbery happened. Sheriffs office and that coming down here looking for they sale and sort of thing came down here was that i saw it come out basically told us they have a week to move down at quite common here in the homeless community. Women veterans are definitely the most underserved population. We could put a man thats homeless right now no problem but we have a young female. That has no place to go and has to hide has to hide harbor. Or. This is actually a new town off of our and my last paycheck but the 1st one when it was over in this corner and after the 1st rain because it had holes and whatnot we were so all of our betting everything was just soaked and i was lying down in my socks my clothes his wrinkly minutes of them yeah. These are my girls kid you know. They were both rescues. Clearly like my heart tends to be bigger than i can handle. Would logistically you know. I have a diverse students which moves 5 weeks old and the v. A. Certified her as a therapy dog for me she actually just being my. Baby. Turned it into like a peach yes response to all of sudden im feeling like really edgy. Defensive should really only post up close to me and make sure that nobody likes. A really just give me a she think she knows that nobodys gonna hurt me she just knows that like theres times i cant handle it was proximity to other people. I was a navy diver. So. I did primarily as submarine rescue and i worked on actually had a really cool job in the navy. Undiagnosed Mental Illness was a major part of why ended up homeless. These girls back in here. A minute ok. You can totally mean you can get in there. Ive got my the psychiatric drugs that you know at the ready and i havent missed a dose of my medication since ive been given it and i just really like. A i mean i can write lists now and like realistically c. L. s through in a day. Call people back. Whether im going to make an appointment or not. It sucks its terrible its no you know nobody should have to live like this but at the same time i have i do have a roof over my head and 4 walls busy and organic heaters you know what i mean i will never go cold. And on never not get my hugs for a day im clear about the fact my hands out and my hats off and i need some help. It you know and when im in a position to like reach out and help somebody else that your ass im going to be there like as soon as that opportunity shows up when my son will have. Me. For the pathology of trauma and if that are in is them wanting to i sleep from society from each other and we just want to be left alone. And thats are our biggest challenge i think we fight desperately to get them out of their comfort zones and get them back together and get them to sit in the tables to make friends you know to do things that people in normal society you. Contacted security. Being with other people. Was what heals. To them and. Their growth. Rate that. Art so one of yours is ready to move on week knowledge that accomplishment it would be giving up of this coin runs a very special point on one side says thats a recovery because thats what you guys all are now on the other side says i came with hope worked and learned i have a new life. A life that i earned this corn is going to be for didnt smell her. Tennis and only for a while a loving man you felt me with my spiritual growth. Did you know that youre my hero. You are. Good luck. Yes ah. Oh very simplified place of that thought by their very good record. Brother whos seen it. Deduces can it be hard for me to see it really because i can really talk to you about my stuff. Your desperation to all these kinds here were going to miss you thank you. I feel the same way trudy goes down its just you know im an issue so much youve done so much for me hope me in every where you really have hope you know that of make sure you guys you know i was in jail it be a guy be a late picks me right out the g. L. Banks youre right here ike i hear words. Shower shoes on. Family have strained orders against me. I came here with so much shame and this place picked me up and you guys did too. You know i forgot about working i mean you guys looking forward to get out of here you know and have a good autonomy i think i want that autonomy and i want to feel good about myself to get my family back. God bless you all and thank you. And id be remiss trudy i love you too youve been like you better great friend to me we hit it off right off the bat i forgot i forgot im sorry i missed you we get right up bad. Yeah we sure youre right person. Did you. Hear me say. The. Far. Better. Way to. This. Given. Moment yesterday when i left the story completely had no idea who it was didnt know what my car was had a full blown panic attack just going through those where in one minute im in reality the next minute im not quite painful. In this process is you know brought up all the stuff ive stuff for 20 years yeah. I dont i just miss my good friend jenny hi. Dave dave this is jay jay mohr nice to meet you. I went into the coast guard to go help others when i was 17 and a month before i went to maps they weighed me and told me i was 5 pounds overweight i was 170 lb body builder with 6 percent body fat so i quit eating in basic training so through my time in. My anorexia took over my life at that point i was 112 pounds. So i finally was able to get into rehab in rehab my 1st week i was then cornered several times by a counselor and the last time he raped me so my history in the military was difficult one for something i wanted to do something i so wanted to do i had to get out to save my life women with m. S. T. Military sexual trauma if any female says ive been raped or ive been sexually assaulted or i have been brutally badgered they had nothing happens its sort of falls on deaf ears and you get kicked out and you get nothing and it happens time and time again. I also myself was raped 3 times different times in the military and it definitely is its horrible and it happens to women quite often very much often that was 20 years ago when i finally broke this last may. I had been stockpiling pills and id already been drinking a lot and taken a lot is innings through the day. So it took about 80 norcos percocet then expert panel and then some into an argument like you shouldnt drink of whiskey. And i was ready and i said im going to bed